And. Brent. I apologize for never responding to that thread from before. Or responding to this post you've made mentioning me now. I wish I knew how to help you. But, I don't. As I've stated, and as Quantum Quack agrees, I think that a huge portion of your problem lies in difficulties in communication. The only advice I can think now is "practice makes perfect." But who knows. Maybe there's some kind of communications course you could take? Something with experts actually working with you on a personal basis? Show you how to express yourself effectively? Anyway. I'll TRY to find some time to read what you've written here and to respond to it as I am able. But, at the moment, reality has sort of grabbed me by the balls. What can I say? It's funny. Sometimes the 'real world' just grabs you and won't let you go. Things are happening right now and I don't have the time I used to. So. I'm sorry. Wes's advice is good also. About how you should simply BE Brent rather than Brent reflecting on Brent. This all goes back to Existentialism of course. You should understand the point without any long exhortations. However. 'Being Brent' without being able to communicate with others in your life doesn't solve the problem, does it? Maybe you just need to get laid?