No actually.
Just my night with sciforums is filled with ... a bitter taste. More than likly I will end up throwing a fit and running to the bathroom :/
I've been having some deep and immense feelings lately of horrible mental stress and torment or something, it's very confusing and projects itself onto the screen.
I can't be certain of the validy of the words that I read--- I believe!--- and so it throws me into a spiral, and the endless rest of it, like my intellect shrinking and such; it is so weird.
I feel bad for most of the things I f'ing say to people here or how they will take it. I suppose you might say a huge eposide of depression, and would you believe it: it could be caused by something so horrible as this: "change is bad." (for me). Would you believe that. My very words and projection of self or what not are anti productive to change. Would you believe it. Not only that but I am mildy evil. The perception of the words that I have which is twisted is also probably caused by an 'action paralysis' which is very weird; it's like things which are the absolute reality which are still a part of myself are being defragmented and I am still trying to fucking hold on or something. It's confusing, I understand it, and still have some psychic stress, and the putting up with all of this shit is insurmountable or whatever.
I am also debiliated.
LOL
THERE