Ok. I think that the evidence unfolding here is that, you're more interested in my history and my difficulties with early education than anthropology.
From the top your post is rooted in your history. It is what you have led off with as your preamble - your backstory. It is pretty apparent that's what you want us to know about how you've drawn your personal conclusions about life, which is what you go into next.
Which is fine, but you're not stating objective facts about the world, you're stating insinuations. And I still don't know which parts are true. So all we have to address is what you present, here. I didn't write all that; I'm only addressing what you wrote for us to read.
One example of a possible insinuation that raised a flag is in your very first post; Who are "these people" we're supposed to recognize? You've sketched some rough dots, and expect us to join them.
That flag was a herald to the next one: Is the picture you've painted about monks and straps a real recounting, or is it an allusion?
You don't have to answer; but it is very hard to discuss with you if it is apparent you are not being entirely forthright. It feels like manipulation.
What you are displaying is something ...
What I am displaying is a thoughtful response to the message
you are sending within the words
you wrote. Is it possible your teachers noticed a similar sentiment in your communications?
For example:
Aha. News arrives that it's time for a break. Smoke 'em if ya got 'em, boys.
Sit back and relax. It's time to learn.
Is this how you spoke to your teachers when you were a student?
I'm not trying to bust your balls here; I'm genuinely responding to the message I am receiving from you.