Well ok then. Thanks
I still have this feeling though, that I've wasted these moments posting this. This thread is effectively free of any curiosity. Nobody appears to be interested. No problemo. I can pick up my guitar and play. This activity I think promises an experience that might be more fulfilling than the one I've managed here so far.
Look, it's easy for me. I want to learn so I ask other people about this. Learning mathematics is perceived as the subject that people generally find difficult, I did too, but now I don't. I wanted to explore this. What happened? Why do I look back and laugh at the standard teaching approach, which everyone admits is good enough but never so that children actually learn what the subject is. What is it for? Why learn about quadratics, what is the point. ??
Being told the point is that you need to know it and you have to pass exams, just never cut it for me, and I think I can say a few things about why. Why isn't mathematics taught as an enjoyable thing to learn? Why is the default reaction, "Oh god, not that stuff". Is there a way out? Can someone cut a shorter path through the jungle?
Or just forget about it. Jut learn it and try not to feel too weird that you know some math, but you'll probably never find out why you bothered.