Thank you.
What I'd like to say is for everyone to hear. I hold no malice towards this forum or any other (well maybe LoveShack.org) and when I look back on the long history I had here I realize it was enjoyable. The forum has been something to entertain and stimulate my imagination in ways I really couldn't understand or perceive (at the time). My path as sderenzi was really a test, it allowed me to see what an internet forum was like and how tolerant the people on it could be.
As sderenzi I really didn't take anything to seriously, after-all I had some pretty bizarre and unusual ideas I had to sort out. I posted quite alot of unusual things and many of you participated fondly because my topics were outside the norm (for a forum of this kind). I'll admit I didn't really think what I was doing was wrong, it just seemed like something to pass time.
When James R originally banned me it was due to my silly threads (really just stories making fun of members) and the outlandish nature of my personality. Adding to that I specifically requested it, well, we can't fault the old boy for actually doing it! So when he did ban me for intruding on the forums over-all style I wasn't to surprised, he wasn't a mean man or cruel just moderating this place. He could hardly know me or who I really was outside this realm, and one certainly couldn't expect him too.
As we all know forums are a place people become different, they show sides of their own mind they might not otherwise share in the open. With such an unusual and amazing frontier how can if be any wonder problems will sometimes arise. After having visited other forums I've found this one is for the most part accepting, unless you are completely brazen in your behavior.
So after my trail as sderenzi ended I began a new one as darksidZz, and while this was (at first) just a way to post some more normal ideas of mine it eventually began on a similar path as that of sderenzi. I know my membership was threatened here and that Fraggle helped to persuade them to keep me, mostly because he felt sorry for me. I can say knowing that fact upset me greatly, but I can understand it too. As a person I would not argue anyone here is a jerk or purposely attacking me, it's clear they only want what's best for the forum / members.
One reason I always posted polls on here was because it was so simple to attach them and get some votes, after awhile I realized it could get annoying sometimes. I felt that if you were going to post about something of interest there was always a single thing everyone wanted to know about it. For example this thread on Crossbows
http://sciforums.com/showthread.php?t=76416
To me I'd say that was a waste of a thread, there's no poll on whether anyones ever used one before. I hope you can see what I'm driving at, there's literally a million questions you can ask in a poll and the answers (if given honestly) will give you insight into the people posting. That's all I ever really wanted, for everyone to gain some real glimpses of those present here.
Now I'll say for the sake of conversation using polls might just make someone lazy and they'll merely vote instead of discussing a topic, that is very possible. Perhaps that's what the real issue has been with the polls (aside from my polls bizarre questions).
I've no idea why you'd allow me back after banning me again, I am certain a great deal are not happy, whether with me or the forums current state. What I will tell you all is I'm really just a nice guy with some eccentric ideas, for the most part I've been able to exercise them a little here. Thank you for encouraging me and offering me your help / minds it has been a pleasure and truly I find I've learned alot here. Some of you may be aware I'm on Spurious's forum, well for the most part I think it's better that way. I do tend to get carried away, and while I could post scientific theories, etc. here if you review my older posts (as sderenzi or darksidzz) you'll see there is something there of a social science experiment (if you will).
I'm not saying I'm asking for a ban, what I'm saying is that if you'll let me I will remain active. I probably won't post but still it's the sentimentality that matters.
And Fraggle / everyone I don't think I have more to learn than I do give, I think I'm just different and a little outside the norm. Adios!
HAPPY NEW YEAR
PS I almost forgot, the people on that list I really liked are:
Singularity
Imaplanck.
Wanderer (Satyr)
IceAgeCivilizations