http://theinnerwheel.com/2009/10/13/synastry-studies-the-mcic-part-two-aspects-and-inter-aspects/
"If someone’s Saturn falls on my IC or in my fourth house, I will most likely feel responsible for them. I may want to guide and nurture them, and feel a profound link that may be more familial than romantic, though the two feelings certainly can merge. At first, I will feel safe, and anchored. If the person who owns Saturn has parent issues, I may eventually fall into the role of a father or mother figure, particularly if there is an age difference in the relationship. The attachment may unconsciously be one of parent/mentor, and a lack of equality in the relationship may not go noticed until it is too late. Saturn may be fine in the beginning of the relationship, but after a time the angle person may find themselves increasingly unable to express their emotions in any kind of honest or spontaneous way. Saturn may bring the angle person unwelcome familial responsibility. The angle person may feel emotionally oppressed and burdened by the relationship, and grow tired of carrying someone else’s Saturn issues as well as their own."
You can't just go by appearances say between an adult and a child or assume one is more mature or carrying responsiblities because it's the adult or older.
Also, with people like this, if you show fairness or kindness, they will take full advantage of it to the point they believe that you owe them continually, simply for the fact they are getting what they want out of you. and if you stop, they will be spiteful and vengeful. can you believe that? you didn't do anything wrong to them but if you try to protect yourself from their exploitation, you are doing wrong to them in their view. dealing with evil, morally depraved and insane people will fuk you up in the head/heart.
for instance, i tried to lock my bedroom door after i was molested so the stepfather was angry and so he removed the door handle. once i was listening to a love song on the radio and he maliciously derided me that i was fantasizing about the singer or someone else as if i was beholden to him and was cheating on him? this was when i was a sophomore in high school and he was attending bible seminary? once in panama city when he was assistant preacher at carlisle baptist church, when i came home from school he was there alone with me and so he started making an obscene attempt and so when i got angry, he became violently angry and dragged me by the hair to the bathroom and shoved soap in my mouth. because i was depressed often due to carrying all these ugly secrets and skeletons for them, i was slapped on my face by that so-called mother for not showing a happy face to her ridiculous church congregation. his bitch of a monster of a wife, would come into my room and tear a poster off my wall and slap me on the face just for the hell of it and proclaim i don't love them as much as the person on the poster if i don't do what they want. very petty and nasty things like that. there are so many instances, i can't name them all. it was like a whirlwind of nastiness and depravity.
The stepfather seemed to see me as some type of therapist for his issues, trash receptacle, sex object to purge his perversions, ragdoll for his aggressions, maid for his home, and a nanny for his daughter.
Same thing with the mother as she also had sexual perverted attitudes toward me but in speech and attitude not in action. like when i was developing around puberty and she noticed my chest was enlarging, she told me to remove my sweater so she could see. very roughly and out of jealousy because i was her enchmark for who to compare herself with because she wouldn't be able to get away with this type of behavior or attitude with others because they would be angry/pissed off and disgusted, of course. it's like she was a bisexual butch rapist of a woman. Her rape was of your soul through jealousy, malice and ill will. His went completely also to actual sexual deviance physically.
That's another aspect in synastry i had with my abuser and that was their saturn on my ic, which is a very sensitive intimate point. i had to be the parent and take on all burdens physically and emotionally which is destructive and just eats away at who you are to the point you don't even remember anymore what you want later in life because it's been eroded under so much damage and taking on other people's issues and burdens, so during your developmental time, finding what you wanted in life never got to really develop properly.
They benefited and were able to develop what they wanted though. i noticed they were generally more carefree and unaffected than i was overall in life and expected more/entitled (which proves they weren't as abused or oppressed to believe they deserved less) and got along/identified on frequency with everyone else, generally, meaning they didn't stick out or alarm bells with people did not go off. they were very lazy people who seemed to believe ( i have no idea where they got this idea) that others were supposed to serve, suffer or sacrifice for them. they were the laziest people about tasks that any decent person would do themselves instead of taking advantage of another such as personal chores and responsiblities so they wouldn't have to do them. they wanted to make sure they could pawn off all the dirty work on someone else yet they were not more evolved or more intelligent. they just believed because they were so genuis at evil that they were superior to others, unlike them.
this is why when i hear people complain about the next generation as being less mature or irresponsible or entitled etc than the previous, it truly makes me angry because it's not true. it has nothing to do with a generation. there are people who have existed like this all along in society in every generation.
i mean, he was just a janitor basically who became a preacher (a quintessential scum redneck even though he wasn't born to such a family) and she was his wife who had social climbing aspirations. both were megalomaniacs. even i don't understand that type of ambition. a cancer and capricorn: pretty cold, ruthlessly ambitious, hoighty toighty combo.
you know the film - the quick and the dead with sharon stone, where they say that they had to 'bury him deeper' because he stunk so bad is an apt metaphor for the stepfather and his filthy and diabolical character. he just reveled in filth and he was offended when someone around him was cleaner in any way or better or wanted better etc, even a hint and would degrade, abuse and demean you down to his level, brutally and violently. he loved to pervert and damage everything and anything as a way of competition against others. same with her.
they just find some way to dump this crap on someone else which makes me wonder horrificly if that means that is what most people do, which in turn, again would mean that people like me are the more rare, saner and ethical ones because we don't operate that way and even after going through this shit, we would not do such hideous things to people!!
those who burdened you could have dealt with their own problems/issues, it was just an opportunity to dump or inflict their issues on someone else, so either they would have to deal with it.
my whole life, nature has shown me it's disgusting, twisted, perverted and has absolutely no fairness or sanity to it. the only sane people all throughout anything in life (though it's fuked up) is the abjectly selfish and aware of what is beneficial only to them at all times.
i have very sound and good reason to hate or be suspicious of society because i have actual life-long proof and evidence.
if these types of people were really the minority in a so-called good society, they would have been the outcasts (even if people claim they didn't know, it doesn't matter).
society ostracizes people when they don't really know them either for various reasons (even instinctively) so that tells me that scum are always the majority. fact.
