Psychosis ~What is it?
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Yeah this is concerning.
Jshatz, I have told Tara about how although it is sometimes difficult to find a professional (psychiatrist) that you like, trust, and think can understand and help you - there are a lot of them to choose from, and not to give up looking for one that you like.
From my experience, the help and difference a "good one" can make to your quality of life can be life changing.
I don't think anyone deserves to suffer like this.
Jshatz, I have told Tara about how although it is sometimes difficult to find a professional (psychiatrist) that you like, trust, and think can understand and help you - there are a lot of them to choose from, and not to give up looking for one that you like.
From my experience, the help and difference a "good one" can make to your quality of life can be life changing.
I don't think anyone deserves to suffer like this.
When I look around I see so-called humans deliberately adding to the burdens and stress of others. They dump on people like dumping work on others that they don't want to do themselves, and they come up with crappy excuses to do it.
In real-world terms there are agencies and individuals who find certain individuals and gradually narrow the scope of the lives to less than that of slave. People and organizations who are charged with "taking care" of individuals and businesses use "rules" and "regulations" that may seem reaonable to make the business of life more and more of a burden and a pain without measurable benefit for those who receive their "care." Acting like this serves two purposes. First, it helps destroy the victims. Second, it helps increase the dependence of the remaining victims on their caretakers. Those who do this seem quite unable to see anything at all wrong with it. They pretend that they aren't destroying people when it should be painfully obvious to any moron. Some of them do this on purpose, too, with very evil intent.
Which are we?
In real-world terms there are agencies and individuals who find certain individuals and gradually narrow the scope of the lives to less than that of slave. People and organizations who are charged with "taking care" of individuals and businesses use "rules" and "regulations" that may seem reaonable to make the business of life more and more of a burden and a pain without measurable benefit for those who receive their "care." Acting like this serves two purposes. First, it helps destroy the victims. Second, it helps increase the dependence of the remaining victims on their caretakers. Those who do this seem quite unable to see anything at all wrong with it. They pretend that they aren't destroying people when it should be painfully obvious to any moron. Some of them do this on purpose, too, with very evil intent.
Which are we?
yes your right. ad 'we' just put up wit this ever encroaching prisonplanet. everyone is seemingly possessed wit utter mediarized bull crap.
it is really frighteig when yo see this. because it remindsmeof that film Day of the TRiffids. did you ever see it. its about people beingtaken ovr by this alien force. and then they become the aliens
well it's like that. you might tell them and they cant here or see what's up. and actually accuse you of being 'paranoid'
saw tis docu about Korea last night. they are all hooked on digital technology. maing virtual families online and idenitfying with tis gooky character. we saw all tese mesmerized people glued to screens. even on trains etc.
and our presented cheefully announced how soon that shit would be coming to US.
dont know whethe to cry or run to the nearest fukin river!
it is really frighteig when yo see this. because it remindsmeof that film Day of the TRiffids. did you ever see it. its about people beingtaken ovr by this alien force. and then they become the aliens
well it's like that. you might tell them and they cant here or see what's up. and actually accuse you of being 'paranoid'
saw tis docu about Korea last night. they are all hooked on digital technology. maing virtual families online and idenitfying with tis gooky character. we saw all tese mesmerized people glued to screens. even on trains etc.
and our presented cheefully announced how soon that shit would be coming to US.
dont know whethe to cry or run to the nearest fukin river!
There isn't any sense in it. If people lived only in virtual worlds, the world would come up with some kind of pathogen or another that would kill them in their beds, maybe even through heavy concrete walls. Either that or we would die in even greater numbers of degenerative diseases that come about because of lack of contact with nature and each other.
oneof the hardest if not THE hardest is when you reaalize your parents/guardians faults when you grow up.MetaKron said:
so you HAVE to trust yourSELFif you somehow have come thru much negativity, and false guidance, which hs attempted to be instilled in you
by what you say you seem to HAVE done. your one of the most insightful, intelligent an loving people i've met here at sciforums
Metakron:
"When I look around I see so-called humans deliberately adding to the burdens and stress of others. They dump on people like dumping work on others that they don't want to do themselves, and they come up with crappy excuses to do it."
* One cannot get dumped on against one`s will. One can choose to listen, or choose
to walk away. Both options are OK.
M:
"Some of them do this on purpose, too, with very evil intent.
Which are we?"
* Which do you think YOU are? That`s the rub.
M:
"You know what is the most galling? When I seem to have lost my fight in some way to keep my light shining, that is when my mother is most likely to say that I have seen the light, settled down, grown up, and so on."
* Yep that sounds about right. Disempower that notion, and persue your own path. Your mother ain`t you. She is somebody else. She is not living your life.
"When I look around I see so-called humans deliberately adding to the burdens and stress of others. They dump on people like dumping work on others that they don't want to do themselves, and they come up with crappy excuses to do it."
* One cannot get dumped on against one`s will. One can choose to listen, or choose
to walk away. Both options are OK.
M:
"Some of them do this on purpose, too, with very evil intent.
Which are we?"
* Which do you think YOU are? That`s the rub.
M:
"You know what is the most galling? When I seem to have lost my fight in some way to keep my light shining, that is when my mother is most likely to say that I have seen the light, settled down, grown up, and so on."
* Yep that sounds about right. Disempower that notion, and persue your own path. Your mother ain`t you. She is somebody else. She is not living your life.
I can never feel clean or right after encounters with my mother or "authority." They have done so many indecent things and have used such dirty excuses for doing them. People, I acquired what amounts to a form of cerebral palsy from being forced to take drugs because my allegedly peculiar behavior was somehow a worse problem than a nervous system messed up by drugs or social skills messed up by continual bullying and by totally ruining my life.
What a lot of people don't understand is that authority steps into people's lives pre-emptively then does things that simply make things a lot worse.
What a lot of people don't understand is that authority steps into people's lives pre-emptively then does things that simply make things a lot worse.
M:
"Horseshit. Children who are seven years old get no such choice."
* Nope, but as you get older... and wiser...
M:
"Don't you wish it was that simple."
* I understand its not that simple. I left home at 17. I have paid my own way ever since. Today I am OK. Its never been easy, but then who said it is supposed to be?
"People, I acquired what amounts to a form of cerebral palsy from being forced to take drugs because my allegedly peculiar behavior was somehow a worse problem than a nervous system messed up by drugs or social skills messed up by continual bullying and by totally ruining my life."
* Sorry to hear that. Are you an invalid today?
M:
"What a lot of people don't understand is that authority steps into people's lives pre-emptively then does things that simply make things a lot worse."
* What can you do about that now?
"Horseshit. Children who are seven years old get no such choice."
* Nope, but as you get older... and wiser...
M:
"Don't you wish it was that simple."
* I understand its not that simple. I left home at 17. I have paid my own way ever since. Today I am OK. Its never been easy, but then who said it is supposed to be?
"People, I acquired what amounts to a form of cerebral palsy from being forced to take drugs because my allegedly peculiar behavior was somehow a worse problem than a nervous system messed up by drugs or social skills messed up by continual bullying and by totally ruining my life."
* Sorry to hear that. Are you an invalid today?
M:
"What a lot of people don't understand is that authority steps into people's lives pre-emptively then does things that simply make things a lot worse."
* What can you do about that now?
I didn't mean too freak any one out.
I wasn't doing as well as I had thought I might have been.
I had attempted to "get help".... Every direction failed miserably. (ignore my spelling here)
When I finely went to the ER I was told I should stay. I will not. I do not like those places. I do not like any asylum. I would die first.
I lied to every one I loved out in the "Walking world".... But I did not mean to cause such a scare.
No, not true. Actualy, I had THOUGHT that I would be dead and would not have to face any one. I failed at that too.
I do not care for any "help" The world thinks I may need right now. I know that sounds bad and against a lot of what I have said, But fuck them....
I am happy to say that I got to finely meat some one I care deeply for. And that made me happy. Not all is Evil.
I know I promised to stop typing so Funny, but it is such a Weird habit I have.
Haha...
It would be stupid to say "I do not want help, I just want this to go away"
So, I will not say that. But I have realized, that aside from my horrid spelling and typing skills, There are just some things that can not be changed. Things that will never change no matter how hard you may try to change them.
Some times, when you face these things that can not change after all that struggle, those things can become more tormenting. and make you worse.
I guess I am just dealing with my own demons, and I forgot my weapons.
So, how is every one else?
I wasn't doing as well as I had thought I might have been.
I had attempted to "get help".... Every direction failed miserably. (ignore my spelling here)
When I finely went to the ER I was told I should stay. I will not. I do not like those places. I do not like any asylum. I would die first.
I lied to every one I loved out in the "Walking world".... But I did not mean to cause such a scare.
No, not true. Actualy, I had THOUGHT that I would be dead and would not have to face any one. I failed at that too.
I do not care for any "help" The world thinks I may need right now. I know that sounds bad and against a lot of what I have said, But fuck them....
I am happy to say that I got to finely meat some one I care deeply for. And that made me happy. Not all is Evil.
I know I promised to stop typing so Funny, but it is such a Weird habit I have.
Haha...
It would be stupid to say "I do not want help, I just want this to go away"
So, I will not say that. But I have realized, that aside from my horrid spelling and typing skills, There are just some things that can not be changed. Things that will never change no matter how hard you may try to change them.
Some times, when you face these things that can not change after all that struggle, those things can become more tormenting. and make you worse.
I guess I am just dealing with my own demons, and I forgot my weapons.
So, how is every one else?
Platonica: Read a good book. Have a pizza and some ice cream. Get drunk. Kiss someone you love. Tell someone else to fuck off. Let yourself function as a human being. Even in your life most everything is not about your "problems. Take care of yourself. Good to see you again.
Ahh... thats why I Luv ya MetaMetaKron said:
I know what I should do. Honestly. I forget that one Valuable lesson though. Called Patience. I want the hurt and the situation fixed NOW! But it wont. And I know that.
I left every one because I felt I was truly in the way.
I still feel that I am. No matter what they say, I know that I am and was in the way. Too Childish for my own good. Too innocent to understand basic shit.
I would go into detail, but it would sound more like pitty then the truth. And I could give situational responces to my past, but it would not give the impact and misdirect my underlining problem.
I hate that I hear things and see things that are not completely there. Those I have delt with all my life.
Sadly, it has gotten much worse, and my fear of being "put away" has made me run.
I took the medication that I was given, though I did not seek counsling help.
I called out when I knew I was going to slit my wrists again... But I was ignored and looked at as a pitty seaker and weak.
Then it made more sense to me to be out of the way.
My Old man was offerd a good job at 60K for 2 weeks... He would have had to travle. He did not take it because he was afraid to leave me alone at home again. Esspecialy with the children. Because of my past.
I stopped cleaning my house and refused to leave it unless I had too. It made my situation worse. I stopped answering my phone.
Then. after a while, I was lead here. Wanting SO much to fix "this"....
But it is clear to me it isn't fixable. And I am afraid that right now, it doesn't even feel as though I want to Live with it.
Today I am still in Limbo. Hanging in the Balance of confusion and fear.
But I am ready to talk. I supose that is a step closer?
You know, people will say that you have to figure out a thing for yourself, but sometimes that's just bogus. You may get a well-exercised brain, but a brain or a body can only take and benefit from so much exercise. Trust me, I know.
What is wrong with you can't be fixed. The best I can figure out how to say it, how to answer the riddle, is that it can't be fixed because it isn't of a character that allows for fixing. You don't "cure" or "repair" this. You treat it like exercise of the body. You use and carefully exercise the strengths that you want to have, and persuade them to develop the way you want. This can also be called fixing, curing, or repairing, but what you do is to grow into the person who you want to be. See yourself as that person even for a few minutes each day and grow yourself into that image. Don't let the lapses fool you. They are natural. Be ready to risk everything so that you will be who you want, doing what you want. Be very patient with yourself because it will take a lot of work. It also won't be the most comfortable thing you've ever done. The rewards will be great. It will work and it will be worth it.
Somehow I believe in you, Platonica. I think that you are a better person than you realize, and I'm speaking as one who is in the same position.
What is wrong with you can't be fixed. The best I can figure out how to say it, how to answer the riddle, is that it can't be fixed because it isn't of a character that allows for fixing. You don't "cure" or "repair" this. You treat it like exercise of the body. You use and carefully exercise the strengths that you want to have, and persuade them to develop the way you want. This can also be called fixing, curing, or repairing, but what you do is to grow into the person who you want to be. See yourself as that person even for a few minutes each day and grow yourself into that image. Don't let the lapses fool you. They are natural. Be ready to risk everything so that you will be who you want, doing what you want. Be very patient with yourself because it will take a lot of work. It also won't be the most comfortable thing you've ever done. The rewards will be great. It will work and it will be worth it.
Somehow I believe in you, Platonica. I think that you are a better person than you realize, and I'm speaking as one who is in the same position.