Hawkl:
Okay, so you've got it off your chest about the grade system and the "conspiracy", and now you know that you need - what - a C or better to have a chance of getting a decent apprenticeship.
The question then becomes: what are you going to do about it?
It takes a certain amount of time and energy to stay angry about your poor grades, and to stay angry at the "system" for screwing you around. You can put your time into whining about how badly done by you are. Most likely that's not going to help you, even if in the longer term it does somehow end up helping other students in the future.
A more productive activity, I suggest, would be to work out what you can do to improve your grades, or else to work out other pathways you can pursue that will lead you towards achieving your career goals in the longer term.
what clearly comes out is a behavioural addiction to blaming others while playing dumb and playing the victim.
such behaviour patterns are ingrained over many years and often are attached to specific intellectual dissabilities with associated behavioural & substance addiction issues.
addictions to abusive relationships
drugs
addictions toward cycles of violence/violent abusive people
negative behaviour pattern addictions
like any addiction, you need to "want" to give up
the apprenticeship is the want
thats awesome !
question is, will you change your inner processes and behaviours & seek out new ways to find happiness that drives you at the same time ?
part of your problem is you wish to ignore the common sense part of the natural competitive nature of life.
being in the bottom 10% is not helpful
it doesnt give you choices
if there is a range of things, you need to be in the top half of that range to be able to have choices.
that is the same with any human society anywhere, any religion any culture.
some people are happy just mucking along day in day out never being more than just existing.
thats fine, but you dont get the ability to get the big TV
choose the apprenticeship you want...
etc etc...
better late than never.
it took 10 years for you to realise that.
some people never live long enough
others never learn