I am easy to convince. All you need is good data. Objectively derived, empirical, and credible. However, all I get from guys like you is subjective stuff that has no credibility.
That's fine, i understand your frustration, some things must be experienced
to be understood, most of what we understand at the deep end of
the physical universe is what the High Priests of Science describe
in their scripture journals, and we believe it and swallow it whole because
there is no way we could personally verify it for ourselves, for that
we would need a particle accelerator in our basement, so we go along
with the consensus and it becomes part of our belief system, but it is
nonetheless second hand knowledge. If you are happy to believe that
and can see its positive benefits in your own life and the world
around you, that is absolutely fine, most of the time that is what i do
like everyone else. i marvel at technology, computers, space probes,
i am in fact a technician myself.
But there are some things we must experience for ourselves, a direct
first hand experience, Gnosis. There is no theory of consciousness
but that does not stop us from believing that we are aware, self
evident we say. There is a technology that describes our psychic world
but because we have no theory for it, it is outside the scientific paradigm
so not available to the majority of the populous who are blissfully ignorant
of it. There are a places where you could go and experience this Gnosis
for yourself with the help of a teacher, in fact there are many places
in many parts of the world, but first before anything else you need to
open up and admit to yourself there is actually some possibility that this
can happen.