Oh.
Upon reading further, that thread I mentioned above goes a long toward explaining my position on this as well:
...Schopenhauer was an atheist, who thought that we used aesthetics, (art) as an escape but that permanent salvation was to be found beyond earthly things. Similar to Buddhism, Schopenhauer saw this world as an illusion and went as far as to advocate the denial of life.
However, Nietzsche felt that even though there may not be a purpose or meaning, a strong person can acknowledge this without denying life itself and still manage to say "Oh, hell ya" to life.
They're both saying the same thing; only their values differ.
Life is simply a matter of aesthetics. I often feel I
should see despair as a lesser response than ... carpe diem. But I don't. I vacillate.
I have the capability to appreciate a work of art; but I do not
seek art in order to feel an appreciation of it.
Nor do I create art, despite the nagging feeling that I should.
I'm neither Nietzsche nor Schopenhauer. I lean more toward the latter; perhaps, though, it is that I do not fully understand Nietzsche.
Gendanken's little gibe regarding my nihilism was not misplaced. I do feel, however, that I lack the capability to explain fully why "nothingness" doesn't exist, for me.
Lefty once said that he thought compassion was a construct of religion and Hollywood. That compassion was face to face, a beggar on the street or "someone down the barrel."
While on the subject of Lefty, I feel I should clarify something:
All I've seen of him is the one thread where he got stuck into Fraggle. Now, I may not agree with everything Fraggle says, and I can state with certainty that his view on life and mine are not compatible at all. I don't, to be completely honest, even respect how
long it takes to get Fraggle riled up. But my respect there comes from a single source: the man is a fountain of knowledge. Regardless of whether one may agree with him or not, he
contributes to this place. Yes, he can be a pretentious bastard at times, but then so can I.
I've never been averse to an opposing opinion supported by an arsenal of research and the ability to construct a reasoned argument in support of it. I've never been averse to a heated discussion. Swear at me all you like, as long as you have something to say.
But I'm aware that Fraggle is not of that ilk; and thus he has an exemption from my... well, me.
I felt compelled to wade in with a baseball bat. Not because he was being attacked, nor in general because of how. Rather, because someone deserving of at least a modicum of respect was being afforded none. It matters not a jot if Fraggle himself thought he needed defending.
There are very few on this site I'll defend in that manner.
Very few.
Respect, for me, is a rare and complicated thing.
The quotes are from one of my favorite authors, Allen Wheelis...sexy, I tell ya.
So you keep saying.
I have a confession to make. And this note is not only for you.
I don't read much anymore. I've used several excuses, my suddenly needing glasses since a year or so ago being one of them. The truth, though, is that I simply don't need to. I haven't read anything for years which hasn't eventually bored me. I once had a library, and it was stolen. But I don't feel that loss as I once did.
People say to me: you should read this. I'll think yeah... yeah.
I made a mock of them, cranks and the pious. Just because you feel or wish it to be true doesn't make it so. I was too logical, too cynical, a dream crusher, or so I've been told. I feel that a belief in an afterlife devalues 'life' itself. I struggled to separate emotions from reason but realized in the end that it is our emotions that tell us what to value.
Ummm. They do... but I'm wary nonetheless. I don't even like
myself telling me what to value, and I trust myself not at all.
I may be truly fucked.
For a while, I think. This thread has actually been interesting. I had the chance to talk about me, for starters, albeit perhaps in the same manner Jackson Pollock paints.
Speaking of which, once in an art class I was asked to paint a jungle. The result looked much like one of his paintings. The teacher frowned at me when she saw it. I was too young to understand why; I only wondered what I'd done wrong.