whenever i mistakenly feel too sorry for myself and lose perspective, a part of me kicks in to remember those who suffer alongside or were/are recipients of worse chance. i remember in middle school when i was waiting outside after class for the bus and there was a line of developmentally or mentally challenged kids my own age getting on their bus and one of them stood out to me. he was very tall and was carrying a kids lunch box. i could see/feel his soul and his inner light. it was so kind and loving. so utterly innocent and loving even in the face of such cruelty and degradation. he was so beautiful, i had to catch my breath. it's like his inner light was softly emitting all around his aura and his facial expression. so utterly innocent and a heart of humble goodwill unaware there was nastiness and danger around him. my breath was catching because i didn't want that evil to taint or touch him. i felt his soul and it was just soo good. i can't emphasize how much. i believe there are angels among us and i saw an angel in him. they can exist anywhere and in any situation in this world. his soul wasn't just good, it was wise, very loving and highly evolved. i sensed it clearly. some of the regular kids were taunting them very viciously. he was so beautiful, such a beautiful soul trapped in a situation he didn't deserve. he deserved a normal life like everyone else. it is utterly humbling to remember how many people do not get to attain many things just like us and they deserve it too. that's the thing that is very hard to understand and that is how can evil hate or be cruel to such beauty and precious good in a person but that terrible, irrational and horrible reality exists as well. there are angels everywhere. anyone who is moved to do good in the world, even in the smallest gestures, is drawing from their angelic side. then there are people who are amazingly angelic. they are the ones who devote their lives to improving the lives of those who are suffering and downtrodden.