Hi everyone. This is another of my help threads. This time there is more on the line than a regular "can't fit in with other people." I am not certain if anyone on this site could diagnoise the source of the problem and it is indeed very courageous of me to ask this. As at the time I have been recovering. I could tell a lot of things about this relevant here if asked. So. That said and out of the way. May it appear normal what I am saying and how it is being said. I would hope that it does/doesn't. But, I have a few examples and thus the title. First of all, the fact is that, there is something dead wrong. There are a lot of reasons for it being there, but I cannot find the source of it. Try as hard as I may I constantly fall and get back up and also wonder about how my human nature should be. Maybe you would call it a normal confusion. However, in my case I have come to the conclusion that being told for in this example above to do something better with my life is a little of a shock when it is approached. What I mean by that, is only that I am wondering about how I "should be." And I know that I am "who I am." Okay. I have enough knowledge about this to probably get down to the bottom of it on my own. But it is so much easier writing it here for you all to help me and moreover it is easier to write it here in the first place. I also feel that these are some statements I had wished to be shown, not to mention the source behind their anger. And I warn you it may appear very vulgar, but if it appears to me to be when written comming out of defense or some such what else would you expect it to be but something other than a true vulgarity? Or something.? Here: i will fight fight fight fight fight, some moreE~! and i'll fight fight fight fight fight, for glor-ie, until, the face, of , vick-to-ie, i will fight fight fight fight fight, NO more, I will fight fight fight fith fight, no more, ii shall not ever once again fight anymore because it's killing me, but what is killing me, i will neverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, evvvvvvverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, never ever know And here: what the fuck shit god damned mother fucking god blasted shit holes from the universe of planet fucking hell you can all go and god damn suck my mother fucking dick because you can't fuck with me anymore you god dmaned bitches from shit emphany .... Here: so the fuck is everygoddamn thing else in my mother fucking god damned peice of shit exucse of a god damn mother frighting shit hole of a bitch ass existence Wouldn't you think something of this? How about meditation and such? Is that a benifit. I am simply concerned. I have tried to reach out and ask it. For the news of sciforums I likly will be doing something to hopefully prevent any of this from occuring. Not only however is that the main problem. There are others, I mean. You may at first call it schizophrenic or schizo-whatnot but, the truth his that people experience these things daily but not at an amplified sense. What I mean by this is the very thing that had destroyed me to begin with. The idea of when sleeping, someone would hurt me even when I was very far away. I know, this sounds very impossible but you try telling me that here at this point in this writing and you will be shocked. It must have destroyoed me as it must have. Because it did have Please Register or Log in to view the hidden image! So anyway. As I am saying I am recovering slowly and surely but there are a few total impossible problems to breach. The main onen possibly is just that I can't seem to go over to my grandmothers house very well and talk to her like a normal human being. I am so afraid to do that. And I also question what it is about me that I am not accepting something. That one, the former point, is something that gets me down quite often. I know that I am me. But I also know that none of you are aware of what I'm saying.... Okay well, let's hear what you think about some of these examples of the vulgar language and if you ask to get down to the source of any problem I will be more than eager return here to read what has been written......
Are there really 105 viewers watching FreeThoughts? That's about the extent of my concern. I guess you're young and haven't reached that age when you can sit for hours amused by trivialities. How does that quote go: "Time heals all wounds"?
just my guess Turrets(sp?)syndrome maybe? Ive seen someone behaving like that once, calm all the time and then suddenly cursing for no reason.
I don't know the perameters that those spy bots use to roam around looking for things but I'd think that more use on a certain thread would be one thing that they may be programed to seek out.
So you live in the keys? Did you ever go fishing for those things President Bush went fishing for during the hot months...what are they...Sturgeon?
You will live and you will die. that is how it should be. Death is a certainty, take comfort. there is no way that you can predict how you "should be" at that moment So, it does not matter.
LOL! No bonefish is what he seeks. They are very hard fighting fish, look a lot like a barracuda. Bonefish aren't very good eating though and are caught and released for the most part. Many people catch them using only a fly rod which is very hard to do. I always thought Bush went looking for better speech writers myself. Please Register or Log in to view the hidden image! Please Register or Log in to view the hidden image!
Brent, Imagine: If your life would be happy, if you would be happy and everything would be fine and you would feel normal and not strange in any way: What would your day be like then? What are the things you would do in the course of the day?
Hey Greenberg. Yes well. You see I would have no wrongs with any of my thoughts I would quit behaving like a weirdo and I wouldn't be afraid of anyone or, I wouldn't have to worry so much about everything. Kind of like having to think about what is wrong. I wouldn't worry about that. I would have to consider things about this. Like being able to go to the computer here without knowing that I am confused out the bologonia hole! Etc etc etc. Like I said I just wanna be safe and happy.
You sound exactly like a friend of mine. He was perhaps schizoaffective, bi-polar, or schizophrenic. He used to yell these kinds of things at himself when no one else was around.
Well I don't yell them when I'm alone, I yell them when "other minds" are collapsing me. Eh, pardon. maybe I do not. In every which case it is a bother; I am hoping that some things may come to me which are producitvely speaking good. Not to mention the use of all of my words is amazingly fucked up . Sheesh. Anyway.
Who is that? And you don't know jack about my writing style.... If you did, then you would understand that how I am right now is because of bodily misfunctionings. However I like your style of writing, until you start being a jerk Please Register or Log in to view the hidden image!
Woody Allen made a lot of money playing out existential insecurity, married a sex goddess then eloped with a nubile Indonesian.
