riku_124 said:well, it seems liek your axity comes form not doing anyhting
I agree. When we aren't engaging with the present, when we're passive, past thoughts and feelings can easily take us hostage.
This is why, in a prison, the solitary is the worst punishment: one is left to the mercy of one's past, with no escape to actually do something in the present -- other than strive to deal with the past somehow.
what are your hobbies? hopes? passions?
I think there comes a point in a person's life when all these seem to fall away. I think this is because the organism wants to get well, and it tries to focus on that which is really causing troubles -- and everything else, all distractions get done away with.
So in a way, the state where one seems to have no hobbies, no hopes, no passions can actually be very conducive to a solution. The thing is then to accept that there is this old pain, and stop pushing it away or distracting oneself away from it.
This may be very scary.