this is a poem that i wrote a while ago.. as of yet it doesn't have a title.. i just can't think of anything that properly fits the emotion of the poem.. well it's really long.. but here it goes..
In Baby's adoring eyes, Daddy is a hero
A strong, loving man, who's always there
In Baby's naive mind, Daddy says "I love you,"
When he really means "I don't care."
And through her rose-coloured glasses,
Baby looks up at him with Mummy.
They look like they're in a fairytale,
Daddy looks handsome and Mummy looks beautiful,
Just like the prince and princess in one of the books
That Mummy always reads to Baby.
But one day, Daddy is going, walking out
On Mummy and their little Baby.
Baby sees Daddy's back as he walks away.
The slience following the fight between
Mummy and Daddy is deafening.
Baby wonders where Daddy is going,
And when he comes back,
Will he take her to the circus in town?
But the circus leaves, and Daddy is still gone.
And now heart-broken Baby knows,
She might never see her Daddy again.
And she cries for her Daddy,
And she wishes for her Daddy,
And she screams for her Daddy,
But crying and wishing and screamimg,
Won't bring Daddy back again.
Daddy leaves Baby's life, while leaving
A gaping hole in Baby's trusting heart.
But it wasn't Baby's fault,
And she shouldn't have to live with the pain of not knowing,
Didn't Daddy love her?
Or wasn't she good enough?
Why was Daddy never there for her
When she needed it, especially now?
Baby's finding it hard to remember, it's been so long.
And her heart's gaping hole is now filled with cement.
Cold, hard cement... not that different from Daddy's.
Will Daddy's heart ever soften?
Will he ever want to see his Baby again?
Baby doesn't know.
Many years have passed since Baby last saw her Daddy
She's finding it even harder to remember
What did Daddy look like?
What did he sound like?
Did Daddy have his own smell?
Baby still can't remember.
Then one day Baby breaks down, and once again,
She cries for her Daddy,
And she wishes for her Daddy,
And she screams for her Daddy,
But crying and wishing and screamimg,
Still won't bring Daddy back.
One day Baby knows that Daddy will wonder
He will want to see his Baby again.
But then it will be too late,
Because by the time Daddy is interested,
Baby would have already lost hope.
And Daddy will just be another thing in Baby's life,
That she just can't depend on...