This is a topic, I also wrestle with. I've believed in God all my life. That said however, I've been angry with Him at different times. I've wrestled with this very thing, time and time again.
Why would God allow the Holocaust? Why would He allow 9/11? Why would He allow my dad to have cancer? On and on...I have strayed from the faith, and came back...a number of times.
I think when people meet christians...sometimes, there is an assumption that we never question. That we blindly follow. We just keep plodding along, never dissenting. lol But, I'm here to say. We too question. Often!
The only explanation is that God created the human race to help itself. To support itself. Gave us all free will. The will to choose right and wrong. When I think about that, I think...imagine a world where there was no free will. Would I want God to be a genie in the sky, that swoops down every time I mess up? How will I learn right from wrong, if I never learn to correct myself through Him? Heaven is where there is supposed to be no more strife. I can't imagine a place like this.
This topic merits a longer dialogue, but I just wanted to quickly chime in, as I think it's important to know, that people who believe in God, wrestle with the same things athetists do. The very same things.
But, in my questioning, and anger...I have come to surrender to God, meaning...I see life as a maze of good and bad. Suffering and reaping good things. He's not a wizard sitting around ready to grant us our every wish. Nor is he an ogre that smites us.
As a believer in God, I believe that He does care for me. There have been a myriad of circumstances throughout my life, that through no other way, but Divine Intervention, I could attribute the good that's happened. Yes, we are in control. Yes, we make choices. But, there have been times when I have made horrible horrible choices. And yet, everything 'somehow' worked out. I choose to believe that God was in those details.
To me, He is in the details.
That said, it's not easy to go from not believing to believing in something supernatural. I grew up in the faith. And for a long time, I think I just paid homage to my father through my faith. But, as an adult, I started seeking answers. If I'm going to follow this faith in God, I need to know WHY. And that journey took a few years.
So, if you don't believe in God ...but are inclined to at someday explore the possibility of a Creator...it does take a while to accept it all. It's not easy to accept faith, for face value. It's not easy to take that 'leap of faith.' It isn't.
But to me? It's been so worth it. The strife, the struggles. All worth it. Don't wanna do them again. lol But, God knows what He is doing, and we are to be helpers and caretakers of each other. He created us to 'be' for one another. I offer this to you as my belief. Not to sway you, but to help you see that my belief isn't built on nothing.
Anyways, that's my two cents here. For whatever it's worth.
