energy, mass, space, time..

lets first try to explain how the gravity effect works. im not sure if this is what general relativity is supposed to explain. i've tried reading it, but it simply seems too complicated to actually describe something meaningfull. if it actually worked we wouldnt be looking for theories of everything 100 years later. some diagrams asocciated with GR do look a bit similar to what i will explain here.

anyway, gravity causes "sucking of space dimensions" into the source of the gravity. so, a position x in space at time t will become position x' at time t' which we see as closer to the source of gravity. simply, gravity sucks in the coordinate system as time passes - indefinitely. gravity fields happily moves along with its source

now we go to inertia. objects with mass resist acceleration. why is this so? because they actually have to move against their own gravity field. or in other words, for an object to move at any angle it has to overcome its own gravity field which sucks in space coordinates or simply space. so this actually explains why mass can never accelerate beyond the speed of massless objects - even though gravity fields are very weak at long distance they extend indefinitely, which means the object with mass will simply never escape its own gravity field.

now, it would seem that i imply mass causes gravity, but no, energy does as we have already come to understand. furthermore, mass and energy seem interchangeable.
but energy doesnt seem to experience inertia, it simply travels as what we observe as speed of light - through ideal empty space. photons actually either exist as lines through spacetime or as relativists like to put it - for it, distance is contracted to 0 so basicly, a photon would be a point in a 2d slice of 3d space and into this 2d slice everything along the path of the photon is merged. regardless of the view, the essence is the same. a photon creates a gravity field that sucks in coordinates into this line - its path - at a right angle, or if you wish into this point in this merged 2d slice. since it only sucks in space at a right angle to it, there is no gravity field in front of the photon for it to beat - it can freely travel through space at maximum speed.

so, how does this relate to mass and its gravity field and interchangeabilty of mass and energy?
imagine a photon or whatever pure energy quark is somehow trapped in an orbit, lets presume it is trapped with another quark and they are rotating around each other influenced by each others gravity field - the one described for the photon. what happens is that both of them are trapped within their orbit paths around each other - forever. and move at the speed of light around each other. since the two quarks spin around their CG and we have said that massless objects suck coordinates into their paths or into the contracted 2d slice, their paths actually form a circle which makes their gravity field act from the center of the circle. and voila - we have mass and its gravity field we all experience. as this particle has now created its gravity field it has to beat it to move as explained at the begining.
on another note, the quarks spinning around each other at the speed of light forever actually are the event horizont and the particle itself is a singularity.
any energy released by inteactions which reduce mass is always again released with the speed of light as the quarks move at the speed of light in rotation as mass, any change in this results in them breaking orbit and exiting at speed of light.
the nature of gravity fields explained above implies that inside the event horizont of the particle the gravity field pulls coordinates out of the center towards the event horizont.

now, im not really familiar with many experiments involving elementary particles, nor do i claim i have exactly explained how everything works.
i do not claim that light or pure energy quarks take the form of particles, they may be waves, duality, whatever..
they may somehow due to their weird nature and involvement in changin of spacetime form spheres, not circles, but the end result in terms of gravity is the same.
knowing how exactly photons and other pure energy quarks work would probably explain how elementary mass particles are formed and why they work the way they do. we would also need to know how to these event horizonts/eternal orbiting energy work and interact with each other..
i have also not bothered to implement orelativity into it or explain it as it would melt my brain probably.

but the proposition of such fundamental universe behaviours seems reasonable to me

thank you for your opinions