I’ve known this since I was a kid, that my family of origin is a very unloving one. I’d go to friends’ houses as a kid, and see their parents act in ways that my family didn’t. Kinder, gentler ways. I grew up with great wealth, money thrown at me and nannies raising me. I don’t want to get into details, but I find that my coworkers, friends, dates, etc treat me better than my family of origin. I try to take the higher road but they’re truly unkind people. I wish we could “divorce” our families from childhood, because I just don’t associate or feel connected to them in any way. Not sure why I’m sharing this here, but it’s cathartic in a strange kind of way.