this is funny. how do you know what god is and isn't? you don't. what you are describing is what you feel or think god is or basically it's like describing a certain type of mentality or feeling such as a positive feeling, state or image. that is real in itself as a concept or state of personal being but to attribute that is god is a personal interpretation or belief. everyone has a different idea of what god or spirit is. even if one thought a god existed which was evil, that still doesn't stop them from focusing on or appreciating what is good, positive or beneficial either mentally, emotionally, spiritually or physically. there is also evil as well, so this is a very large conundrum that we all wonder about and there are only speculations at a certain point.