Sometimes I do think that this is a better alternative. I don't know where I am heading in life... and sometimes I think am I heading too far into a dead end. But with that said, pot makes me think I am hearing my own brainwaves and that my friends are going to attack me. Just keep this in mind: your past has NO bearing on what you can accomplish in the future. I heard that quote on the radio yesterday morning... it has some relevance to my life, but I think it has even more relevance to your life. Don't give up dude.