Again Q, How many times do I have to tell you I am not afraid of my mother. The only time I approach her with apprehension is when I have to tell her something I'm afriad will make her disappointed in me. Like most children I'm eager to please. I do admire my mother very much so. So the answer to your question would be yes, I do admire someone who has hit me. When she comes to visit me I don't run out and hug her because I'm afraid that she'll hit me if I don't. I do it because I'm glad to see her. If I don't respect someone or I am afraid of them I sure won't be giving them any warm greetings. So I know the difference, stop telling me how I feel. I do respect her for everything she has done for me and the sacrafices that she made for me. I love her and love being around her if I was afraid of her I wouldn't go out of my way to spend time with her would I? My entire life I never hugged or even said hello to my grandfather unless he said hello first (that I can remember) and that is because I actually did fear him and had absolutely no respect for him, beyond what formalities were required of me as he was my grandfather.