Is subjective truth good enough to make something real? I've heard things like "God is love" and "God is good" and "God is everywhere. If I choose to believe it then it is real enough to me. What I fear about religion is what the ethics and interpretation of justice contained in its beliefs may foster in people. Folks follow the scriptures with what they perceive as God or spirit. How much trust and knowledge of oneself does it take to be able to tell what is what? It takes a lot for me to trust my own senses, but I tend to give a lot of weight to the physical types because they are bound to the physical realm as is my body. The part that troubles me is the books. The believer I was was definitely not good. I was focused on trying too hard to fulfill all the laws in the scriptures and live a holy life. It was simple: Love, but yet so hard to not have a bad attitude or get upset at something, or botch the whole thing up. It completely made me a self-absorbed person trying to do good. It was an impossible task to live up to my interpretation of the scriptures. Everyone has their own take from scriptures on what it takes to be living according to their religion. There is some harmony between peoples' ideas from scriptures, but there is a bit of discord that is unnerving and controversial. The misunderstandings muddies the waters to a point where it is doubly hard to know the truth of any God. So, what if there was no books and no group-think religion? Is that better or worse? I went to church last Sunday (I'm not a believer) but I am curious about people's beliefs...call it a quest. Anyway, I appreciated the welcome of non-believers I received until the pastor spoke that I had to believe what was in the Bible. The supposedly God-inspired scriptures that is "Alive"...or able to deliver clairvoyance from via the spirit through the words. He lost me after that. I can't trust myself or anyone else's interpretation of the book without first believing in God. I seek to understand their belief and find the truth. They say to look in the scriptures, but I've been there and done that. The truth is not there outside of the book. If God exists, it must exist outside the stories and be bigger than the scriptures. More importantly, all the scriptures do is condemn me for not believing. Is it possible to believe without the scriptures? That is my quest: to find believers who believe for reasons other than religion. So far this has been a waste of time....save for the good music (minus the words). There are truly some talented musicians who are believers, not very shocking, but it is my consolation for this seemingly futile exercise of having an open mind.