Hi all. It's been several years since I checked in, but I haven't forgotten y'all. My life has evolved over the years. I started on here in my mid 20's as a Christian. I dropped my belief a few years after, and maintained atheism for almost two decades. I'm now the ripe age of 41 and "am blessed." I've learned to be strong on my own and prosper due to unseen forces. My life is pretty much uneventful without much grief. I have no complaints, and am happy and at peace. If I were to believe in God (capital G, Christianity), it would take answers to these questions: 1. Why is the belief in Jesus required to make it into heaven? There are scriptures that condemn those that don't to death. Why can't someone live a penitent, apologetic, and altruistic life and be considered. After all, believing is easy when shown. But, loving someone is what is hard. Love is all that matters in this life. 2. I was brought up in skepticism in my generation. I was taught by society to not believe in anything without reason. So, where is my freedom of belief if I have no choice but to believe reasonable things? Again, to be condemned by this is unjust. 3. Love is a two way street. Love is bigger than one act like dying on a cross. How does God love us? 4. God was not silent in the past (according to scripture) in ways that matter to satisfying 3. 5. Where is justice for the innocent? A single excuse (for God's purpose and our betterment) is not enough due to 1,2, and 3. My god is love in all its forms and intents. That is my religion. Sometimes I feel like a Christian, but I don't believe in God, unless God is love. But if God is an entity and love, then the bible is fucked up.