i was wondering if i could attain enlightenment through meditation since i'm a Buddhist. i'm a Buddhist since young and go to the temple with my family once every few months.However i am not the type believe in abstinence and drank alcohol once every few months(mixed with water of course! just to relax while surfing the web). And i also masturbate occasionally since i believe it is a natural urge of humans. Bad things aside,i do kind deeds for nothing more just to see the smiles of others and my pride(bad?) prevents me from lying or committing any crimes whatsoever. i also try to improve myself physically by training daily. I believe that by polishing myself mentally and physically i can reach a higher form than i am now.but i do give in to lust and alcohol once in a while too. So,as a Buddhist am i screwed or will i achieve a higher form? If you're wondering about my age,i'm in my late teens Please Register or Log in to view the hidden image!