|| Opening post reinstated after consulting the author. It was either this or delete the thread (since the author deleted the opening post earlier). Without evolution we would not exist. It is what created us. If it was anything other than totally indifferent to the existence of all organisms, we would never have evolved. So here we all are. For me and most other people, our lives have been filled with a lot of pain, and will be until we die. Watching loved ones and ourselves age and die, things like that. As crude as it sounds, sex is the only thing that makes life seem worth bothering with. I am 60 years old and remain fit and such for now, but see it slipping away,my looks,strength, and such. I am an Atheist. Always was. I went to church because my mother made me. Bored senseless listening to nonsense. Fought a war, had and still have some decent sex. But how much longer can that last ? I am not afraid of dying and have came very close to it when I was gutshot at 19 years old. It felt very bad. You get very ,very cold for one thing. This is the way it is for all creatures sooner or later, one way or another. Or some other way. Perhaps much worse. Look at what happened to all those people in Haiti. How do the rest of you Atheists deal with these sort of feelings ? If I did not have other people who depend on me I would end it. It, life, is not much fun anymore. I do want to age to the point where women no longer find me attractive. I hang around to provide money for others. I had a hell of a time but no longer do. Screw it all.