feelings are all over the place. is there no peace?

EDIT:

so as usual, after awhile, i pull back and think "well..i dont want anybody reading all that. it's mine. and i dont want to share it with anyone. not until things are right...then i will shout everything so that the whole world hears."

thanks draqon and timm for your input.
i know this is something only i can figure out.
no need to have someone reading all that rambling.
cheers.


'night ol chaps.



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"I fell in love again
all things go, all things go
drove to Chicago
all things know, all things know
we sold our clothes to the state
I don't mind, I don't mind
I made a lot of mistakes
in my mind, in my mind

you came to take us
all things go, all things go
to recreate us
all things grow, all things grow
we had our mindset
all things know, all things know
you had to find it
all things go, all things go

I drove to New York
in the van, with my friend
we slept in parking lots
I don't mind, I don't mind
I was in love with the place
in my mind, in my mind
I made a lot of mistakes
in my mind, in my mind

you came to take us
all things go, all things go
to recreate us
all things grow, all things grow
we had our mindset
all things know, all things know
you had to find it
all things go, all things go

if I was crying
in the van, with my friend
it was for freedom
from myself and from the land
I made a lot of mistakes
I made a lot of mistakes
I made a lot of mistakes
I made a lot of mistakes

you came to take us
all things go, all things go
to recreate us
all things grow, all things grow
we had our mindset
all things know, all things know
you had to find it
all things go, all things go

you came to take us
all things go, all things go
to recreate us
all things grow, all things grow
we had our mindset
(I made a lot of mistakes)
all things know, all things know
(I made a lot of mistakes)
you had to find it
(I made a lot of mistakes)
all things go, all things go
(I made a lot of mistakes)"


cheers.

 

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yeah its all like that.

 

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your reply is a bit confusing.

 

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I hope you're not contemplating suicide LuLu, or else wow , you got trained by that other huy here? can't remember his name, but you need a good extra 45min. just to get through his posts! Have fun kid, just teasing you.

 

you reply to my reply is a bit more confusing.

 

suicide?
goodness no. as i said before.
cause i figured with the sentence before that, some would think that's what i meant, but no.
i may feel weak, but never have i let anyone have that much control over me.
i know that might sound a bit out of place, because of how i explained my wanting to make him happy, but that's my doing. it's not him "having cotrol over me" that makes me feel this.
this is just something i dont have control over.
feelings.
although i usually do.

 

clearly a copy past thing...and he/she/it did it on all other forums too. reading couple of sentences of that text monstrocity...yawn...one wishes to just close the thread

Its not the advice that he/she/it needs...but to just let go of all the tensions and deal with the problems with HIM and not us.

 

well, dragon.
monstrocity or not...im just trying to get some opinions.
and after typing all that out there's no way im closing this haha.

sorry to bore you.

 

Okay, so you want control over something you can't have control over , but he can want to have feelings from one that does not have any control over them, yet want to have those feelings over him ?
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Okay, do it, go and get him. I think that's the best solution LuLu. Let me know how it goes!

 

wow you are actually a real person? :bugeye: And not one of those automatic preachers/spam programs? ... amazing.

well whatever it is, we cant tell you what to do, you find the answer yourself. Love is there between you and the other partner...and the only ones to solve it is you and the other partner.

 

ha..if only it were that easy.
miles and miles make that impossible.
as well as money...and having a job that i cant take off from...
i cant take off from life.
ut i worry life will take off without me...if that makes any sense.

 

stop worrying. It all makes sense. Find another partner. Make love. Its time to change. But mainly decide this all by yourself...forums like this is not for any good to decide whats of love.

 

haha. why on earth would you think me to be an "automatic preacher/spame program?

thanks for reading dragon, but im not looking for someone to tell me what to do. just...other peoples opinion. it wont sway my decision...for there isnt really a decision to be made at this point and time. all i can do is try to enjoy life. the here and now. it may be hard, because love is something i find to be half of living...there still are other things that make me smile.
again, just looking for opinions. a nice chat.
not necessarily on my dilemma. love in general.

 

love sucks. I am still looking for a girl...and noone is around. And Im like always alone. Never had sex. Never had gf. Only had one true friend in life.

 

Again LuLu, go with your heart , it is at the end of day, with your "gut" , the right thing to follow. Keep the faith!

 

i'd just like to know if anyone understands.
to be in one place...but feeling for someone so strongely that it takes your breath away....and not being able to show that kind of love to them.
not having them in your presence. not knowing what could have been.

im sure alot of people understand that, but...yea.

not knowing, i think, is why it eats at me so.

 

Dragon. really, if you want I will be your "sci-fi" buddy, but no more than that.

 

Never regret the desicion you make LuLu, only he ones you don't make . Stick with the gut / heart.

 

stop thinking about it. Or youll get eaten away, fast.
Think of a....blue poodle.

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sex isnt everything though.
im still a virgin. the whole cliched "waiting for marriage" bit.
i hold that as something special and i want to share that with only one.

im not sure if you're religious but i've been told that God wouldnt have put something so deep in our hearts if he didnt mean for us to find it oneday.
the ache for a companion, the desire for love...
time. patience.

im not one to talk though....patience is in no way a virtue of mine.
lamelamelame.