10-06-09, 10:53 PM #541
The point of this thread is so that it exists. The standard profile did not have enough space for me to actually fit this all in it. I figured if anyone wanted to know more about me this'd be a good start, lmao Also it's fun when you are bored outta your freakin mind.
No this ain't a darkie help thread, but his advice is ok. I am really going to concentrate on only being myself from this point, whenever I try changing I feel worse. Whatever life I have will be my own, I'll make it with myself alone. Peace
This is my deck
Last edited by darksidZz; 10-06-09 at 11:05 PM.
10-06-09, 11:18 PM #542
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10-07-09, 08:10 AM #545
My basis was on how people can have anxiety/panic attacks, most of the time the level of their attack is a build up of not understanding that "There is nothing to fear, but fear itself". So they get panicky about being panicked and it escalates.
I mention this because that's what you were doing with your thoughts on loneliness. The more you dwelled on it, the more your persona would of been depressed which in turn would of made more people want to be away from you. So escalation was loneliness.
Obviously learning to be happy for the simplest things in life, enjoying day to day and living carefree is likely to be more appealing to people who will want to be around you. So don't have a care in the world and find something you enjoy doing to keep you happy. (Paint, write stories, take pictures with a camera, animate drawings or clay figures etc Join some clubs... dress up as darth vader j/king, just have a laugh)
10-07-09, 09:58 AM #546
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10-14-09, 03:25 PM #548
I got fired awhile back (for nonsensical reasoning on their part) but nevertheless I'm here applying to jobs online, etc. Basically I've been out of work 20ish days (since Sept 14). It sucks, I was so bored and lonely for the entire time, still am. I should have kept my mouth shut but they were getting to pushy and personal with me so I told'm they were nuts (they didn't like that). The stress from that job was not so good but it's better than being alone and sad. Anyways I paid my debts till January but must find new work so I'm going to try security again, I've enrolled to get my guardscard (40 hour training required) which hopefully will lead to a job. I can always move on if I find a better position (not likely since I'm a loaner). I'll need to basically focus, craigslist, career builder, caljobs, all are resources I'm using but I somehow feel they are empty, devoid of meaning. After-all what real progress will someone make on that? I'm glad I live with family otherwise I'd be screwed but they know I've had depression problems in the past etc.
Honestly the job I did have is something I am amazed I could handle for so long, it was almost unthinkable to me. It required alot of interaction over the phone, small talk, people skills, really a challenge and tested me thoroughly. I learned alot there but also that some people percieve things differently because of WHERE they are positioned (job-wise).
I doubt unemployment will ever arrive, I've seen stories about people never being denied but getting it once they'd found work, as if it was just processed, lol
I'll sell this monitor and computer if I need too Right now I don't but ugh imagine if thigns go completely wrong in the next 2 months ha. I'm dizzy from applying online, oh I hate when they redirect you to their homepage as if career builder isn't good enough haha.
ok, well, I'll be keeping everyone posted on my progress, maybe I'll get lucky or maybe not, who can say.
I want to start photographing birds but need a digital camera. ok, well. That's it.
I am going to think some more (not good to think) lul
10-14-09, 03:26 PM #549
move to Seattle, there are plenty of entry level jobs here. And stop living with ya sis.
10-14-09, 09:25 PM #550
Pressed page down, read "another psychic told me", and loled.
10-14-09, 09:28 PM #551
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10-20-09, 03:45 AM #553
Good luck with the job search. Your situation is not a reflection of your potential. Always remember you are the offspring of a continuous line of succesful organisms stretching back over three billion years. Go, go, go!
10-20-09, 03:56 AM #554
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10-20-09, 04:16 AM #556
Oh lets face it darksidZz does not give blue balls about what we tell him, he has never listened to my advices (good advices...like getting a good job and loosing weight) so what good is this now?
Its a thread of sorrows and tears, and its all gone and past. He is 28 years of age, he has past the line of change. Its time to face reality.
10-20-09, 07:10 AM #557
Ds, you are in deep trouble. Deep bad trouble.
You are spiritually bleeding to death.
If you were brought up in a religion, return to it.
Otherwise, the best thing that you can do is join a cult.
Or maybe not.
What if you tried to join a cult and they wouldn't let you in?
That would be even worse.
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10-20-09, 08:11 AM #558
You are not in deep trouble. Keep your spirits up and keep up the energy. My advice is to try to find something you like to do. Volunteer your time to charity, it may yield some opportunities. Consider jobs outside your career field as well.
Call local universities and see if they have some job counseling programs available to you at low or no cost. Do a personal assesment survey, identify your strengths and weaknesses.
Finally, I suggest that you consider what effects your actions have or will have on others and act accordingly. Sometimes it is not wise to "show others". Try walking a few miles in someone elses shoes before getting angry at them.
I used to be an angry young man before I realized I was getting angry at false impressions created in my own mind. There is much wisdom in that old saying, don't judge a man before walking a few miles in his shoes.
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