There is now a whole crop of adults - who can drink and buy liquor* - for whom 9/11 is an historical event from before they were born. *here in Canada
I have only jumped once (tandem) from twelve thousand ( nothing compared to you). It was about 40 seconds of ''free fall''. What I will always remember is looking at a 360 degree unobstructed horizon. It gave me the best impression of being under a dome of blue sky I've ever had. I'm glad there was no cloud that day.
lol thanks im pushing myself physically at the same time aging family whom i am trying to manage their reality which is quite consuming as they trend to be divisive thinkers & self sabotage then lay around paddling in it. roughly 5 people trying to play mind games with me(4 work related 1 family) while im trying to manage 2 family members whom are ageing while im looking for a new job while im pushing myself physically right to the edge of breaking point a couple of times per week. normal peoples' illogical dramas tend to annoy me when they inject those directly into my personal head space which has been happening by 2 work people & 2 family people(im wondering if there is some dementia in the family members whom are under considerable psychological & emotional strain facing some hard life questions they are avoiding & making excuses for not answering). im trying to play the helpful saint but making myself the punching bag for many my sanity is suffering for it but its nothing new to my world, that's almost normal for me but when certain things get impinged on some cracks will go all the way through. while slowly going backwards financially by about 1 days income per week... what is interesting is the memory holes appear to be very similar to black out memory holes from drug induced states. running up against those triggers the need to comprehend them which usually defines a certain level of psychological trauma. it has left me re-examining my buttons that some are pressing deliberately. That feeling of need to kill something to solve something is as always ever present in what ever form it takes(emotions are strange animals) having to take control of that & sit it down on a seat beside me & make it fold its arms & be polite can be considerably consuming. Globally that cabin fever psychological thing is escalating, i expect suicides & violence to increase directly as a result im not sure the media will report it. i suspect suicides have already increased significantly from covid but many govts probably dont want the stats to be published. child violence(children acting out violent actions) seems to be spiking currently in many places
I once met a crop that was better than a cop. I once saw a hearth that was better than birth. but it’s still the end that fascinates.
What super power would like to possess? I think being invisible or having wings. An invisible bird, so stealthy. #ramblings
angry young men & women wanted for internal probe internal applications jump on the pole at the bottom
The Perfect Opportunity only ever presents its self as something you could have gotten away with after you have missed the chance to get away with it & have realized you would have been able to get away with it.
toxic American ego you don't get respect unless you take it from someone else respect must be earned & the only way you earn it is by making people fear you so they obey you it is the cool-aid of American liberal(privilege) society The poison in their own water They perceive the slow painful death of another persons ego as being compulsory for their own to survive
im quite upset & im not going to talk about it so keep that in mind while your reading all my posts today and for the next few days my tolerance for peoples bullshit is almost at an all time low right now
Between covid and trump , has woken us all up to the damage that lies and secrets make to the Health , to society as whole .
she wants me to break my own stuff he wants me to break my own stuff so he can call the cops on me what they both want is to have someone miserable around them he thinks me being miserable gives him what he wants which is to see someone else suffering co-dependent abusive[read psychologically manipulative & liar to cause emotional distress, not physically abusive] relationship dynamics the need to externalize the abuse to a 3rd party to validate themselves & continue their perception of being in control. for many people that is the only reality for them when they are not getting what they want 24/7 its their vehicle to drive their own need for control over things they refuse to evolve to learn how to cooperate with.
It sounds like you're going through a tough time, RainbowSingularity. I hope everything works out okay for you.
thanks let myself get sucked into it really believing the lies only to have it ripped away from me when it was almost there wiped out a business i was starting & which was my last chance to get a house deposit together & while waiting threw away a couple of job opportunity's so i could keep part time now im a bit fucked & trying to claw my way out of a hole sucking down the emotional shit when i try & come up to grab air work & home
Your a good man . But now you have learned . It is true sometimes , the good finish last , but not all the time . There are plenty of good people who finish first as well .
when i think of someone & something it makes me feel like i want to kill a living creature the feeling doesnt really care what it is that i kill as long as its living and i kill it it tells me it will be then feeling better thats not entirely healthy all be it very normal in human society emotions are strange things
i cut my finger by accident with dental floss by winding it too tight & pulling to tight on it while my skin was slightly wet uhg in other news im a bit concerned with the BBC ban after the hsbc thing & the huawei thing then the whos running those foreign tv stations thing now the banning of bcc it looks like global tensions are rising it seemed like bbc was the last semi non biased media international still in the global scene will this signal the closing of the iron curtain by china to the west ? has it already happened ?
why americans drive huge vehicles because they dont look where they are driving lucky none of the vehicles caught fire https://www.bbc.com/news/av/world-us-canada-56035298 https://www.yahoo.com/gma/multiple-people-trapped-following-freeway-142300137.html interesting watching the cell phone video of the people driving slowly watching as if they are helping or preventing injury when they are just driving slowly to watch other people suffer casualty tourists glad the person filming filmed it though, critical video evidence to help police etc etc educate idiots if thats possible etc why dont they have sat-nav alerts set up so all those drivers who are watching their cell phones sat-nav GPS cell phones have an alert flash up telling them to all slow down & pull to the right hand side and stop ? seems logical they dont do logical in the usa do they thats illegal & against the 2nd amendment the right to bare ignorance
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