I often envy people who are dead or dying because unlike me, at least they finally found peace for themselves. Me on the other hand I just continue to suffer endlessly and I don't want to suffer anymore. I just had enough of everything and I'm just tired of this shitty world.
what is the difference between a happy poor person and a happy rich person ? what is the difference between a happy single person and a happy married person ? are some people just born happy ? yes brain chemistry is a key element social behaviours(culture/community) which people have been raised in are also very influential. you are mid 20s single living in a country that only defines personality and ego legitimacy once you are married with a wife ? i hope you are seeing a psychiatrist if you are not you need to go and get a referral