While I've learned so much from everyone here, I had hoped this thread would have encouraged more members here to share their stories of why/when they turned from a faith life, to an atheist or agnostic view -- and more importantly, how they dealt with the different emotions and changes such a transition caused in their lives. I'm hopeful that more folks here will wish to share their stories.
I'm still very much interested to read them, because I find them personally helpful.![]()
Wegs,
Thanks for starting this thread. I think I started your walk about a few years ago based on what you are saying. I wanted to let you know that you are not alone and not to feel guilty. Keep an open mind and embrace your beliefs wherever they may lead, tempered by reason. That is where honesty exists and where you are a better off than you were before, a slave to religion.
I turned from faith for the same reasons as you've said, things happened in my life where when I stopped the praying and started the doing, my life got better. When I found that I was better off awakening, and nothing I thought I knew about God was real, the control shifted. I took it control of my life and now I treat others better because I recognize my faults and accept others more. I can come to terms with life without trying to be Jesus in a more meaningful, almost spiritual, way. It didn't make sense for life to improve without God, so I was further encouraged, but had the guilt you were describing.
I can say the guilt eventually disappears entirely, but the struggles do not. We cannot completely abandon who we were and are better to stay connected rather than resist who we were as believers just because we don't believe anymore. Continue the journey, and be willing to take it wherever it leads, so that if there is a God you will truly believe for a reason.