"There is an eternal dispute between those who imagine the world to suit their policy, and those who correct their policy to suit the realities of the world." - Albert Sorel Do you determine your philosophy based on who you are, or do you shape who you are based on your philosophy? I like to think I fit into the latter category.
1) have you met resistence in yourself? what if one looked at this resistence as coming from a different philosophy? 2) is there a way we, you, one can tell which came first and was causal?
My philosophy vs My personality? Both are so amorphus. Rigidity of either would appear to cause guaranteed internal conflicts if one is honest with oneself. If you are willing to be dishonest with yourself, you can justify your personality using whatever is necessary to fit your philosophy, or vice-versa.
I used the word temperment, though personality could be a useful wording also. If one likes some of the following and not others mysteries control linear steps adventure experiencing without verbal thoughts looking before leaping not hesitating intimacy distance one might end up preferring things to be a certain way or to ONLY be a certain way. A philosophy might arise out of one's desire. Unless you are really good at taking over yourself. Perhaps somewhere off in the unconscious there is struggle (transcendentally), but the person never notices (or only brief flickers). One can also avoid noticing the conflicts by finding others and trying to get them in line. They are like the parts of yourself you don't want to notice. And if you have a philosophy that does NOT fit your temperment it is very hard not to be a hypocrite.
Wait, so I want to be honest all the time, but honesty is something that goes against common sense by past experience, so sometimes I slip and am deliberately dishonest. Dishonesty is freedom from the stainless steel cell of behavior I try to maintain myself in.
For example. And me laughing also. Philosophies can often be lacking in nuance. They are nice in the mind. Sort of like how one imagines one should act when out on a first date. And finally you find a way to act and what to say and then reality intrudes and the little map you had in the mind is suddenly a joke. First off you usually forget to include all of yourself in the map.
And sometimes no work at all, but if work, then it seems to take quite a bit. All we really need is another job, right?
I think I got that. So sometimes you'll do things that go against your philosophy. I paraphase to make sure I understand, and also just in case the implications are not clear to you or other readers. Of course I might be wrong about those implications.