Hi I'm not trying to use you guys as shrinks, but I need answers. I have bipolar disorder, and something else which neither me or my shrink has identified yet. I never get bad conscience if I do something wrong, og say something mean to someone. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a threat to anyone. Some facts about me: I care about very few people. I can shut people (i.e close friends) out of my life in a minute, without remorse or second thoughts. I have big problems with authorities I see everything in black and white I have excellent social skills. I get along with everybody, and I have a big social network I have never been in love, not once. I'm 20 years old. Friends label me as a stone cold person without remorse. ............................................................................................. There is a lot more to say, but I think this is sufficient. The bottom line is that I fill some criterias from multiple personality disorders, but not enough to actually get the diagnosis. Is this a mixed PD?
You, my friend, are a sociopath. Also known as a psychopath. Your description is classic sociopathy. You need to find a smarter shrink.
Well, if you are truly bipolar then stay on the meds and just try to have as happy of a life as possible, cuz it isn't curable. With that said, there might not be too much wrong with you. I have had some mental problems of my own and I found out after some study and treatment that among males about 18-25 there is a high rate of depression and all sorts of stuff. This is why most serial killers fall within that demographic as well as suicides, and even little things like "experimenting" sexually and with drugs. I guess it's just kind of like a time when your body has finished puberty and your brain chemistry is either catching up or falling back or leveling out or something. The important thing is that it will likely pass, but if it doesn't there is help even if you don't think it's possible. Granted, my issues were related to the war, but I experienced much of what you listed. Note: Alcohol will not help!
More info As I wrote, I care about very few people. But in such situations I really do feel their pain, and I want to help them. I feel sorry for them. A sosiopath wouldn't be able to do this? I also had the impression of sosiopaths as very anti social. Is a sosiopath able to love someone? I love my parents, my grandparents and my cat. I'd do anything for them. I really don't care for any of my friends or the rest of the family. They are just obstacles in my way to success in what I am doing. It gets very boring having the same friends over long periods of time. I'm emotional unstabile also, but thats probably the bipolar. It feels like I'm living in a computergame. If people annoy me I usually hurt them bad verbally. Sometimes some people respond by crying, so my comments obviously hurt. I feel nothing, not even anger. The whole situation would be handled calmly from my side. Reasons for me not to be sosiopath: I have empathy for the few people I care for. I have no intention of harming anyone. I have no sadistic needs. People like me. I'm doing good in business too. I'm successful in what I do. Business. I have borderline tendencies too, my shrink says. I think I have a mixed PD. Sorry if there are many typos, or if the post is badly written. I'm stoned on Imovane right now. Helps me sleep.
PolitiKane: Yes, I am truly bipolar. I had no conscience as a little boy either. My parents wanted me to see a shrink since I was like 10 yrs old. I'm fully developed, and I don't think puberty has anything to do with it. MT: No she is a great person. She is very kind and I love her. The same goes for my father. Both of them are very kind.
Maybe not, but I have strong tendencies. Sometimes I want to do bad things just to achieve this delightful feeling of feeling nothing at all. I like it when other people fuck up too. I'm no sadist, but I killed a duck when I was a little kid. Because I was curious. I think I have mixed PD.
Not having a conscience is a sure sign of sociopathy. You claim to care about the few friends you do have, yet claim no conscience. The two are mutually exclusive. How do you explain this?
Well, I shot a bird with my BB gun when I was a kid. I felt terrible about it afterwords. Still do. How did/do you feel?
how do you handle criticism? what do you enjoy doing most of all? what makes you feel really good about yourself?
I think that the important thing is that you know that this is a problem. Sometimes I feel bad that I don't feel bad about something that I should. The most important thing is that you know that. Not everything or everybody can be important to you, but be aware that the person also has feelings and even if you don't care about their feelings, they do. Also, it could help if you try to be afraid of them. Imagine that they are better or more powerful to you and your actions could have bad consequences. Even if it isn't true a little bit of social fear may be enough to keep you from saying or doing things hurtfull, and may allow you to at least feel something towards them, opening the door to other emotions.
point is.... are '''your''' personality traits.... like theirs? does your behavior mimic the mind set of those who raised you? it is likely that it does. -MT
It's hard to explain. They (about 4 persons, including my family) are the only one I feel something about. If i hurt one of them, I sometimes feel bad. If I hurt my friends (I'm talking verbally), I don't care. Even if I had my friends for many years. It's like they are categorized in two different ways. Hard to explain.
I sometimes think about it when I'm depressed. I don't give it much thought. If I could undo it, I would.
Yes. I realize I have some kind of problem. Maybe it will be better in the future. I'm still young. Maybe I'm always in some kind of hypomanic state which affects emotions.
My traits are very different from my parents, unfortunately. They are great people. But I had a rough childhood when I was 4-12 years, because of other kids wanting to beat me up. But yeah, sometimes I think "What would my parents do?" when I'm in some kind of dilemma.
I'm sorry for making this a shrink session. I just want to find some kind of explanation to whats wrong. Let's imagine this being a hypothetical person, and not me.
Capo you seem to have to mixed comflicting views on who you are. Could this just be the Bipolar? After all you are cycling in two extremes this is bound to cause a conflict of who you are as a person?
Yes, maybe it's the bipolar making me confused. It's confusing not knowing who you are, or how you are as a person. My mood changes rapidly, and maybe the swings are changing my personality as well.
