Do you ever feel like you don’t belong to your family? Or to anyone? Even though you’re in the same house, they don’t see you or think of you anymore. Every time you come home there are more and more things you don’t recognize. You find yourself in your pajamas in the middle of the night standing in your kitchen smelling hand soap you’ve never seen in a place its never been put, hoping it will trigger some kind of memory as to why it should all make sense. It sort of feels like when the cupboards have been rearranged, and even though its your house, and your silverware, you just can’t seem to find the forks. And then, you find the silverware drawer, and think you’ve got it down, only to find out that someone’s taken all the forks. …wow.. im rambling about missing forks.. ehh.. I suppose this is just some awkward stage in my life. Anyhow, I just need to post this to put it into words. Sorry for wastin the space, but since ive been getting more clients lately maybe ill be able to donate some more cash for the cause. ;)

I just live in one part of this house, my bedroom. And my slice of pizza is exactly where I put it three months ago.

When I go home my brother is taller and a dog is dead. I get the same thing. Except the handsoap stuff I sit there in the kitchen looking at flies hit the light bulb thinking "Who the hell are these people?"

nope cats still alive.. but ive been eating tunafish with salt from the can lately, and she's been getting really insulted thinking im eating her catfood. its hilarious.

Mmmm tuna, now I'm hungry...

I live in my bedroom, and there is mold growing on a coffee cup in here. I did not think this is possible - coffee is rather acidic. Perhaps I used a lot of cream.

After much contemplation, I have named the mold "Trent" and am going to see if I can get it to grow more by sprinkling sugar on it.

You should dye the mold. Like drop some red, yellow, or blue food coloring dye.

Mold gone hyper on caffein, that can't be good.

Salty:
It's kinda green-gray already, what colour do you think I should dye it?

Originally posted by Xev
Salty:
It's kinda green-gray already, what colour do you think I should dye it?

Make it the color of coffee, fill the cup again and give someone the "coffee" :D

Blue or red, or maybe a mixture and like purple. I dunno maybe it would suck because its already green and it would just turn brown.

I think I might know what you talking about. Cept the part about the housing seeming strange just cuz its rearangged and cant find forks... thats just wacked LOL! sorry. heh
But for me its my folks and the people, the atmosphere. I mean damn I come home or just hang out in the house and my folks just be staring at me DAMN I hate that I mean they stare at me like who the hell are you, they be looking at me mean, specially my momma. And my dad, my step dad... shit I dont even talk to the man, we have nothing I mean not a damn thing in common at all. Of all the years I known him I dont remember anything worth smiling about, and its still like this.
My momma never use to be like this tho she use to be cool as hell. I use to have people come in and out of my house aaaallll the damn time there were always people at the house up in my room just chilling, playing games , talking, or just getting some shade and resting from the sun. I use to be like maaaa my friends coming in , and she wouldnt say nothing so I consider that a yes, heh, cuz she'd let me know if she didnt want no one over. Cept when she knows girls are coming over she'll say no. IF she knows heh. She thought the girls I knew were FINE not that shes being gay but she just noticed, and she probably be thinking that if I'm hanging out with a lot of fine girls I probably have SEX on my mind.... HAHAHAHAHAHAH. My momma pissed me off like that. I aint gonna have sex in the damn house with folks home, shit if I wanted to I'd go somewhere else.. DUH! I remember I use to love when my momma went to the store I'd always go with her cuz she use to buy me things.. LOL! Now I dont get shit at all even when I do things around the house its like I aint appreciated. I havent got into trouble in long while and its like I be getting into trouble when I look at them.
Yea but my folks man... makes me feel like I'm a damn stranger in the house. They be bitchin about the most littlest thing ever and get real mad over it. And they dont even do that shit to my brother WTF! They be like dont compare yourself to your brother we're talking about you not him.. bla bla bla. Just cuz I got GOT in a lot of trouble use to get in alot of trouble they think me trouble... sigh. I dont like being home much cuz of this bull. Then they wonder why I'm out a lot, heh. I mean damn I love my folks and all but I dont feel loved you know what I'm saying. When I get out and get myself doing good in life, I'm gonna buy my folks so much and let them know how appreciated they are, and to my brother... I'll slap him in the face with hundred dollar bills and give it to him. heh

^that was really tough to read, but i understood what you were saying.. can't really relate though.. its not quite the same here.

Xev. put it by the window. it'll be like chia pet in a cup. :D

tough read? heh I have a bad way of writing things out heh my bad. Not quite the same? I guess I have it easier then huh?

PEACE OUT

Every time you come home there are more and more things you don’t recognize.

yep. my parents split when i was 17. my mother got a new house and my dad prompltly remarried and totally redid the old house. it's the same house but everything is totally different inside. it's like any trace of my life from 0-17 was gone. kind of sad really.

oh well. i have my own place now:cool:
at some point you have to find a new 'home'. yah know what i mean?

tough read? heh I have a bad way of writing things out heh my bad. Not quite the same? I guess I have it easier then huh? lack of punctuation thats all. not too bad though. :)
I guess I have it easier then huh? no.. just different.

lol exactly, so why sweat it just cuz your house looks different... erm LOL!!!! strange cuz house is different... I cant help but laugh over that. Its probably cuz I've moved so much that I'm use to different looks.

hehe its all good Fall.
Good to know that punctuation is most of it... heh thnx

TAKE IT EZ
PEACE

I get that feeling whenver I get robbed.
Actually, I only got robbed twice.

If you're going insane, don't feel bad.
You're not alone.
You will always have the internet to help you through your mental degeneration.
Be happy! :)

I just go to my place to sleep. There is nothing there to do than to lie down and drink...

best to avoid that place...

mold is disgusting, wait until that shit becomes airborn and gives you some exotic disease you can't get rid of. Yuck. ugghhhh!