Hi there, I had woken up, when I couldn't breath properly, and found out I was sick during I was sleep, I say sleeping, but I don't remember going to sleep, but I do remember drinking half a litre of jack ds, I had about a quarter left and I just drank that in one breath. And I was off my bed, half naked and sick, I don't understand why I thought I should go to sleep, and that too on the floor naked. Strange. Is this normal? or did I over do it?
I had a head pain, really bad head pain, so I just started drinking some more to numb the pain, and interestingly enough its go away... It's gone away or I am too drunk to feel it. Also I am preoccupied with fantasy's of killing myself, which I would guess is not normal.
I am eccentric, reclusive and weird. IQ of 145, and I still can't cook for myself, and I update my diary every 3 or 4 months. I wear odd socks and have discourses with myself, I don't believe in supernaturalism any more, I am into Solipsism, I am just finding creative ways to communicate with myself. As I know everyone else "humans" are robots.
Stop drinking alcohol. You seem to abuse it heavily. Drinking excessively destroys cells in your body from the liver to the brain. You are not immune.
Its called acute alcohol poisoning. Alcohol is absorbed from the stomach mucosa, so taking a lot of it at once creates an acute overload. Don't worry its normal. It can kill you, but since you got up, you're not yet dead.
Sounds like you're an alcoholic, Muslim. I'd get some professional help if I were you, before you do end up either killing yourself or doing yourself serious long-term harm. Alcohol is a drug, and you're abusing it.
You are drinking, and seeking attention. It's normal. I'm no expert, not even a wise-man, but this is my opinion: If it's been like this for awhile, I would point to a lack of willpower, and the result of not meeting your goals. It's natural that humans feel bad when they don't reach a goal, it's paramount to our survival. What I see happen sometimes is an avalanche effect, a person feels bad, which hurts their willpower, which makes them feel worse and so on. I advise you to cook yourself some breakfast. While you're eating, schedule your day, and follow through plan with no excuses. When you're scheduling, write down everything that comes to mind, all problems, all annoyances, even if petty it's worth writing. Then go over the list, make solutions... Try to do it for a week, and regardless of your feelings, continue it for another 3 weeks. After that it will become habit and be much easier to continue up. If you've been like this for a few years, you could look up passive schizophrenia, but do it when you aren't drinking or you'll commit some level of paranoid self-diagnoses.
