I'm pissed off Please Register or Log in to view the hidden image! Please Register or Log in to view the hidden image! Is this a pointless post? Not to me, I guess my way of venting anger is just telling my sciforums buddies.
Please Register or Log in to view the hidden image! of course i'm going to do the obvious here and ask: what are you po'd about?? do tell..:bugeye:
Awwww, thanks for your concern pumpkins. I feel little less angry now after seeing the little bouncy blue guy you inserted there. I am pissed off because I was used by a woman. I am considering going into the details on here, we'll see.
if you'd like to elaborate, feel free. Please Register or Log in to view the hidden image! can i ask you? at the time, did you realize/know that you were being used? did something kinda gnaw at the inside of you..telling you it might be a possibility. i think we should all listen to that one inner voice (as opposed to that OTHER one Please Register or Log in to view the hidden image! ..woooooo...i'm really digressing here. now..back on track) anyways, maybe something inside you kinda told you you were being used, you might have chosen to ignore it and hoped it really wasn't really true... probably because you cared and had hopes & optimism towards the person/relationship who used you. dunno...
I started this "Guess what?" thread about an hour after she and I broke up (at least that's where it stands as of now). However while she made it seem like a non bitter ending "I'd still like to be your friend", and all such crap, I personally feel used. I was completely truthful and open with her from the start (which was back in June), however, for some reason, she was not honest with me in return - it seems she's spent about the past 4 months lying to me about her feelings for me. And she waits until I am almost trapped in a committed relationship to tell me this. She dragged me into a situation she didn't even feel confident she could handle. If she has alot of other crap on her mind, and a relationship is at the bottom on her priority list, she shouldn't be asking a guy out in the first place - especially when she has the idea of dedicating her time to something else..... That's as far as the "use" part goes. Of course there were other things she said and did when we broke up that also pissed me off, that weren't related to using me. Actually Pumpkin, no I never suspected she was using me. She seemed very nice and I believed her personality was sincere. I never imagined she would do this. While I was surprised by what her actions in and of themselves, I can't say I was totally shocked about the specific content. Kind of like saying (irrelevant example), if you watch someone eat a lemon, well you know for a fact they've eaten a lemon, but you don't know if they thought it tasted good or not. If their face cringes or they spit the lemon out, that's a good indication they didn't like it. I didn't really know what was going on with her, the subjects were there, I knew that, but she was hiding how she was truly reacting to them. It is a rather complex situation, and this is simply my interpretation of it. I'm pissed about other things she's done that, as I said, weren't exactly using me; but I brought that topic out specifically.
if the bible is true then it's all eve's fault for tempting adam to eat from the tree of life or "no nookie for you"
Please Register or Log in to view the hidden image! Boredom sucks "Against boredom even gods struggle in vain." -Nietzsche
Sorry to hear about yoyr woman problems Clarentavious. Hope you feel better letting it out on the boards. You know we're always hear to listen Please Register or Log in to view the hidden image! BTW, that scene reminds me of capture the flag in Halo.
I'm neutral. Went to a dance last night, couldn't get up the guts to ask the girl I'm into at the moment to dance. She was with her friends the whole time, which was a bit intimidating I guess...I had a really awful time there, the music was awful, and not too many of my friends showed up. At one point two girls rubbed themselves against me repeatedly but it didn't even help that much.... That's the first time ever that I was too afraid to do something. I've always fought those little fears, the what-ifs, but I lost the battle that night, and by the time I had gotten up enough strength to try to ask her to dance, she had left. To add to the badness, not only is she a writer, but we slow danced last time. Although I now realize that she has been relatively quiet for a reason: she is a writer, and I can empathize with her. As far as I've noticed (correct me if I'm wrong), writers tend to be a bit more analytical of their outside surroundings, at least more than normal people. We talked about it on friday, and I felt like we had a real connection. I didn't take my eyes off of hers, and...man...I don't usually think that eyes are that amazing, never saw the attraction, but something about them, how little dark patches flecked the inner colors of the iris...it was just amazing. I was drowning in them. At the dance I did notice that she looked at me a few times, I looked at her as well, hopefully we were just both too terrified to talk to each other...but I'm just not sure. Ahhh...that felt good, twas a good rantPlease Register or Log in to view the hidden image!
truly, she shouldn't have manipulated you into having feelings of want/need/desire for a realtionship with her...that was wrong on her part, and, more than likely it was attributed to her state-of-mind...she might have been using (sorry) you to help her to keep from focusing on the real issues at hand that she needed to be working on. in other words, you were a diversion for her. i hope things will improve for you soon.
(beep)(moo). but enough of that. really clarentavious... meh.. screw it. you got my email, you know what i think. Please Register or Log in to view the hidden image!
