In my avatar.

yes

Can you see me good, or bad.
It sucked, because I thought it was a good picture but resizing i'm not sure if it works.

It's a little dark. Kick up the brightness (and a bit of contrast) and it should be good.

Too small and dark.

To be honest, I see a pissed off teenager in your avatar.

If you were honest would you tell me if you even saw the right picture?
I've got problems, and shit.. but hey.

I am honest. It could be something else, like a happy elephant but I am not 100% sure. My screen resolution is so high I can barely make out MY avatar, and I know what it is.

ah. my bad. I will try to work on it then.
But in this one, can you see me good in it, or not clear at all. Do you see me. Can you see me, once again!

Good enough... it's very dark in the lower left hand corner though. Is that for effect?

Can barely see you.
Very dark.
I see a skinny face. Unsatisfied looking.
And... an afro?
Do you have an afro?

Oh.
And Sideburns?

He's black with a white background. He inverted the colors ;)

ah. my bad. I will try to work on it then.
But in this one, can you see me good in it, or not clear at all. Do you see me. Can you see me, once again!
Yes, we see you already. But really crank up the brightness and contrast, seriously...

Don't think so. The shadows aren't right.
Made me look though....

Good enough... it's very dark in the lower left hand corner though. Is that for effect?
No! I took it from a cell phone (my sisters), and sent it to my e mail address, I thought the color was good, but it sucked when I resized it etc.

Invert_Nexus
I seen the movie V for Vendetta yesterday. It reminded me so much of you, that I couldn't quit thinking about it. I was obsessive, as natural.

I see a skinny face. Unsatisfied looking.
you might could say it's skinny. But not too much. I look different in bathroom windows then in my picture. Oh well.

And... an afro?
Do you have an afro?

Oh.
And Sideburns?
Fortunately no afro.
But yes I do have sideburns.

I wish I could pull the picture to this thread full size, but I don't believe that I can.

Therefore the avatar will stay this size for a while.

No! I took it from a cell phone (my sisters), and sent it to my e mail address, I thought the color was good, but it sucked when I resized it etc.

Invert_Nexus
I seen the movie V for Vendetta yesterday. It reminded me so much of you, that I couldn't quit thinking about it. I was obsessive, as natural.


you might could say it's skinny. But not too much. I look different in bathroom windows then in my picture. Oh well.


Fortunately no afro.
But yes I do have sideburns.



I wish I could pull the picture to this thread full size, but I don't believe that I can.

Therefore the avatar will stay this size for a while.


Its really hard to see. You might try taking a picture against a light wall.

Brent,

I wish I could pull the picture to this thread full size, but I don't believe that I can.

Sure you can. After you upload it to an imageserver anyway.

Here's the one I use: http://www.imageshack.us/

Just upload it and either copy the thumbnail link. Or the full size link.
I usually just use the direct link. You're not supposed to, but I do anyway.

Or. You could post it in the picture thread down in About the Members.

Fortunately no afro.

Very hard to see.
It looks afro-ish because there's like this dark spherical shape to the left of your face.
That pic is VERY dark.

I seen the movie V for Vendetta yesterday. It reminded me so much of you, that I couldn't quit thinking about it. I was obsessive, as natural.

Heh.
I've never seen it.
Was I impressive?

Eh.
You was.

Too small and dark.

That's what she said.

Why do you care so much? Can't you see it yourself? If it's any help, crop just your face and make it a tall icon like ^Roman's.

Even better, change it to a hot chick. I think we'd all prefer that (if anyone wouldn't, don't say so).

Too small and darkThat's what she said.

Are you going to take that burn?

Hot chicks are overrated. Slightly overeight or ugly ones are so much better. Kinky bitches do anything for attention. And they love whatever attention you give them.

[img=http://img147.imageshack.us/img147/8011/att000179vz.th.jpg] (http://img147.imageshack.us/my.php?image=att000179vz.jpg)

This is just a test. Btw, let me a second please, it's just sort of amazing that people care I mean i'm human too.

[quote=possumking=Even better, change it to a hot chick. I think we'd all prefer that (if anyone wouldn't, don't say so). [/quote]
Sorry, but i refuse to not say so.
I think i look pretty good. If "we all prefer" such and such, well, well all prefer hot chicks which simply isn't true...

oh well.

Roman you're actually pretty funny.

test

fuckem, let em see for emselfs :D

k
btw, i'll proally be around the picture thread.
who knows
*confused as hell*

Ah. It's your chair, not your hair.
Here. I brightened it for you.
And cropped it to make it square preliminary to resizing for an avatar.

http://img20.imageshack.us/img20/5525/brent3hm.jpg

And the avatar:

http://img89.imageshack.us/img89/618/brentavatar3dn.jpg

Enjoy.

btw, i'll proally

What the frig !

Why can't you pro axis ???

See how you are !?

:mad:

Go with invert_nexus's avatar... it works better.

Are we starting another cult, then... ?

You are right killjoy.
Fortunately no cult for now
:)

wait wait. what is "pro-axis" killjoy?

`
Vague historical pun...

Allies... Axis...

Enemy groups of nations in World War 2.

No doubt you meant to write "probably", but if you reserve the right to spell like that I reserve the right to skewer it obtusely.

;)

Yes.
And thanks still, I think you know it isn't entirely my spelling.


:(

in my picture,
do I
LOOK
like i need to straighten my thought out?
lol

For whatever it's worth, you look fairly lucid. Serenely contemplative, even... at least in the lightened up version.

In that dimmer one you looked sorta like "Young Nosferatu", or some such.

Go for the hot chick. Add a poll and take a vote.

:D Thank YOU SO MUCH for caring.
i'll add that poll...
possum i hope you are lestbian

killjoy
i've always liked you you know that.

you flatten me out to a pulp though

*confused*

Dang i suck.
...

will add poll

you flatten me out to a pulp though

I can't help it you didn't have a flash bulb, Bubbalah...

;)

Dang. lol

Currently, 100% of voters are in favour of 'hot chick'.

Well, OK, it's just me but...

you do know,
the logic behind the poll? I don't think it's clear enough... probably not.
anyway

kinda stupid.
kinda a stupid poll.
freaking stupid right.
hell yeah it's freakin stupid.

i guess a hot chick may be prefered. but i prefer to see me there.
so, let's see that go to 50/50

I think you may have cheated slightly.

TRhere is somerthing about me not likeing to see a guy using a girl as an avartar.. but I do not mind a girl using a guy as a girl as an avatar as a thing.

Sorry... I am drunk... :)

I'm drunk too....only I'm really sober...hahaha, I bet you believed me ...that I was drunk, didn't you???

No, really, I'm drunk.


Not, hahaha, I'm so sober, dudes.




shhhhh....Ich bin voll besoffen. Nein, ok, es war nur ein Witz.

awesome.
seems smell possum was wrong
LOL

Haha.. no, I was really drunk. I couldn't care less about my spelling or grammar when I am drunk. In fact, I think my grammar is bad anyway.

Existabrent, can you post the original jpeg? I'd love to take a swing at doing a cool looking resize.

invert_nexus did it on page one I think.

Page two.. sorry.

indeed he did, the origonal is in a link, which I can't post here

:D Thank YOU SO MUCH for caring.
i'll add that poll...
possum i hope you are lestbian


Sorry. Very hairy male ;).

dammit. 50/50.
stupid shitters the poll is obviouslya joke!

Where is the option for a stud?

............

STUD!

No, I am not gay!

I like girls!

this is weird.

STUD!

No, I am not gay!

I like girls!

I thought you meant a 2 by 4...

why don't you change you ravatar to one of those better ones??????????????????????

I thought you meant a 2 by 4...

Lol... I see what you mean now; I did not think of that.

why don't you change you ravatar to one of those better ones??????????????????????
Suicide, is the most comforting thought ever.

Because, nexus gave it to me.
I don't give up on something like that. Besides, to be completely honest with you, my screen is so un-clear, I can't see either of em.

:)

Well the avatar you got right now is quite fuzzy.

lol.
does it always have to be this way?

Perhaps it is only for your screen, as it is so for my screen
I do remember you said some time "my screen resolution is so high, I kant even make out my `own` avatar, much less..."

So, I wonder if anyone else can see it?
*confused*

Damn.
Be proud i'm able to even type right now.

Suicide, is the most comforting thought ever.

Have you been reading Nietzsche again ?
Great rotgut that fella penned, but he really and truly was a maladjusted pud...


Because, nexus gave it to me.
I don't give up on something like that. Besides, to be completely honest with you, my screen is so un-clear, I can't see either of em.

:)

Don't take it so seriously.... have some fun with it...

You need something like this to remind you to be happy -
http://www.walmartpr.com/images/smiley-man2.jpg
.

Have you been reading Nietzsche again ?
Likely, my past has me so fucked up, that it's all fudged smeared in my head.

I wanted to die to day.
It made me feel happy.

Perhaps it is only for your screen, as it is so for my screen
I do remember you said some time "my screen resolution is so high, I kant even make out my `own` avatar, much less..."

So, I wonder if anyone else can see it?
Well it was more of a bad joke to demonstrate my screen resolution. I know it's clear, however the fire is not all that realistic when you really look at it... I found the image in black and white online... I zoomed in 800% and made the fire colorful.

All the other avatars are clear and in great detail. Like killjoy's is in fine detail... same with the suggested avatars others have posted for you.

lol.

Change your avatar, bitch.

damn you.
not today. must sleep now.
night.

Yikes. It is too. That's about the shittiest resize ever. I never took that close a look at it. Just did it quickly...
Change avatars, Brent.

Hold up. Something whacky is going on. I didn't think my resize was that shitty.

http://img89.imageshack.us/img89/618/brentavatar3dn.jpg

http://www.sciforums.com/avatars/avatar21486_6.gif

What happened?
It got changed somewhere....
Weird.

Now. The only difference between mine and om's is bit of personal preference. Not one of blurriness...


Edit.
Well, hell. It's not even a jpg anymore... It got turned into a gif... What'd you do, Brent?

Hey. Just checked my avatar... it's a gif too. The site re-encodes jpg to gif when you upload an avatar? Well, Brent's re-encode is the only one I've ever seen that turned out like THAT...

Know what Brent's avatar needs? It needs the bobble head treatment like Wes's avatar.

How can I vote for one or the other on the poll when they are both the same option?

lol
Now, seriously, this fucking sucks. I can't even get my avatar right.
Damn.

Also, a fucking big 50/50% for me, that sucks. Possum's idea for a POLL about "everyone would prefer a sexy lady over me" or whatever, damn.

Maybe I did cheat and shit.


DJ Erock you make my mind go round in circles.
Bout to change to the most clear avatar.
Take it easy
uh

Brent... use this: http://img89.imageshack.us/img89/618/brentavatar3dn.jpg

Download it, use it. It's the one invert was comparing with your current avatar. It is sized properly.

Dammit om you deleted your re-doing of the avatar!
FUCK

absane... the avatar in that photo you sent is the same one I am using right now

Heh.
Om deleted his version?
Why? Sensitive or anything?
That's actually funny...
Heh.

Anyway.
Like I said before, Brent. Somewhere my avatar got converted into a different one.
Try using the link that Absane posted. See if it works right this time.

OHHHHH... I can see the problem now... the software SF uses converts avatars to gif... the one nexus made is jpeg, when you convert it to gif, you get that ugly thing.

EXACTLY DUH. I just did what nexus said. And what absane said as well. It is the avatar that I am using right....

now

I got it... I WIN!

http://i64.photobucket.com/albums/h197/absane/brentavatar3dn.gif

nexus, I had always thought you used a magicians hat or something.
this is fucking shit weird.

Yeah. But I've always used jpg and I've never seen an avatar get all fucked like Brent's is.

Somewhere my avatar got converted into a different one.

So, it like... went from Vishnu to Shiva or somethin' ???
:bugeye:

I got it... I WIN!

http://i64.photobucket.com/albums/h197/absane/brentavatar3dn.gif


USE THAT! And like I said, I win. I fixed the conversion problem.

See. Looks fine when I wear it.

Also.
I'd already mentioned the gif thing... so you're a dollar short, bucko.

Edit: Hope I can find my old avatar.... Should have a copy around somewhere.....


So, it like... went from Vishnu to Shiva or somethin' ???

Maybe Mormon...
http://www.spynotebook.org/jocelyn/archives/mormon.jpg

Well I never read about that... I was more focused on masturbation. :bugeye:

how funny is this.

I was more focused on masturbation.
Hmm.
Perv.
Time for you to find God.
Read your Mormon Bible lately?

nexus, you're hot.

Narcissist.

http://www.spynotebook.org/jocelyn/archives/mormon.jpg

What's up with that helmet and shoulder straps ?
Is that a Mormon Paratrooper ?

Hmm.
Perv.
Time for you to find God.
Read your Mormon Bible lately?

Why do people tell me to find God? Why must I reject other gods deemed to exist by others? Why must I be forced to pick anything?

Anyway off topic.

damn - you

Didn't you ever wonder what they carry around in those backpacks they wear?

You did know that Mormons aren't as nice as they appear, yes?
They used to dress up like indians to slaughter settlers that looked like they thought the Salt Lake area might be a nice place to settle down...

I am not a narcissicist person.
I am not a narcissist.
I never was a narcissist.

You go through what I went through, and you tell me you have some self esteem.

Well. You called me hot when I was wearing your face.
Hence.
Narcissist.

I was talking about your picture.
I think you look really uuber dude.

That's not me.
That's Ze do caixao.
Coffin Joe.

I do look similar though.

Anyway.
What the hell are you doing calling me hot???
Go hit on Varda or Platonica or something.

uuuruururaaaarrrrrrarrrgGGGHHH :D

You made me have some confidence or rather some wanna look as happy and intellectual as that. If that is coffin joe, then coffin joe is making me happy. And he is hot, because varda doesn't have as intellectual a look (don't tell her I said that), as you do, so, go shove it UUMMMPH.

lol


:(

Didn't you ever wonder what they carry around in those backpacks they wear?

You did know that Mormons aren't as nice as they appear, yes?
They used to dress up like indians to slaughter settlers that looked like they thought the Salt Lake area might be a nice place to settle down...

Lots of 'em wear backpacks ?

I live in Western New York... we get the occasional Jehovah's Witness meandering thru, but the Mormons seem to have skeedaddled outta these environs right after Joe Smith found the so-called "Other Gospel" - and a good thing, too.
I had a copy of it many moons ago, but it proved an abysmal read, and I 86-ed it.
They never seemed interesting enough to delve further into. Odd bit about them masquerading as inujuns...
Didn't the Mormons themsleves come pretty close to being shot on sight at one point ?
I thought that's why they ended up in the middle of nowhere at Salt Lake.

And he is hot, because varda doesn't have as intellectual a look (don't tell her I said that)

I'm sure she'll read this eventually...

BTW, I am telling on you.

That's not me.
That's Ze do caixao.
Coffin Joe.

Sure it's not the "Coal Thief" ?
http://img425.imageshack.us/img425/659/kohl414fq.gif

http://www.solymar.com.br/html/habbitat/conteudo/imgs/1056563976.gif
Coffin Joe (Still hot?)
...
And. No. I look NOTHING like this pic.


Killjoy,

Lots of 'em wear backpacks ?

Yeah. That's the stereotypical Mormon thing. Those white shirts. Black pants. Black backpack. Wandering around spreading the word of Mormon or whatever.

As to the helmet, probably a bike helmet.

I wonder if he's wearing his magic underwear (http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&q=mormon+garments&btnG=Google+Search)? Can't quite tell from the pic.

Odd bit about them masquerading as inujuns...
Didn't the Mormons themsleves come pretty close to being shot on sight at one point ?
I thought that's why they ended up in the middle of nowhere at Salt Lake.

Well. Ending up at the point of a gun is something that might make you a bit defensive about holding onto land where you're not having guns pointed at you, yes?

Hell, who can blame them there? I'd probably have done the same...

Sure it's not the "Coal Thief" ?

Hmm? I don't get that reference.
Enlighten me, oh mischievous one.

Damn you.

Hmm? I don't get that reference.
Enlighten me, oh mischievous one.

Slightly better pun with the pic fixed.... maybe.
LoL

A WW2-era German propaganda figure

Here's the blurb on the poster from the site I found it on:
This 1940 poster was part of the Nazi energy conservation campaign. The figure in black, the "coal thief," was the symbol of wasted energy. The text translates: "There he is again! He's always hungry, his sack is always empty. Greedily he skulks around the oven, the stove or the dripping faucet. He sneaks around the window, the door or the light switch, stealing what he can. He steals from armaments production, which needs every little bit he steals from city and countryside. Catch him! Read more about it in the newspapers."

Damn you.

What's eatin' you "Kid Nosferatu" ???

Watch out or we'll bust out the Holy Water & garlic !

;)

GAHHH
I'm just realizing - my efforts at trying to believe I am a surviver of this STUPID SHIT PROBLEM I have - are - since at the moment I was feeling as if my typing were more clear than before - I see that it's nothing more than back to the same shit - I hven't achieved anything but a different perspective on my problem, which you guys are all seeing bright as day --- hence, what is eating me is what is eating me - which is, aahhhmm mmm... the inability to face whatevers eating me. To having such a problem that I can't stand. Who the hell knows.

Anyway, for whoever cares, i'll be seein' a docter June or july whatever the 12th, so, i'm sorta having a lot to look forward to then again, it's not much but what I see right now, which is,

W T F

ah. my bad. I will try to work on it then.
But in this one, can you see me good in it, or not clear at all. Do you see me. Can you see me, once again!

i see a young man with shaved sides and perhaps (can't quite see) long on the top. he is pale and thin. his features are somewhat delicate, almost pretty but more angular than soft. he looks as if his face will fill out to be quite handsome when he's older.
he is wearing dark clothes. his hair appears to be brown, medium.
he doesn't look very happy, but his unhappiness isn't showing so much as infusing the picture. he doesn't look angry, just...not happy.

Um... where's Brent... ? Last post was on 11 July.

I think he was serious about leaving?

Aw. Come back, little fella :(

Anyway, for whoever cares, i'll be seein' a docter June or july whatever the 12th
Ah. A clue.

my doc told me that the longer the symptoms go unchecked the worse and less treatable they become. glad to know he's going to see someone before he becomes a statistic. :)

Aaaaah…how nice…Another look at me thread.

Hopefully he's getting his shit taken care of.
Hopefully he's not just getting medicated to within an inch of his life. But, who knows? That may be the only treatment option available at present.
The mental health industry leaves a lot to be desired.

Good luck, Brent.


Know what highlights his problems though?

GAHHH
I'm just realizing - my efforts at trying to believe I am a surviver of this STUPID SHIT PROBLEM I have - are - since at the moment I was feeling as if my typing were more clear than before - I see that it's nothing more than back to the same shit - I hven't achieved anything but a different perspective on my problem, which you guys are all seeing bright as day --- hence, what is eating me is what is eating me - which is, aahhhmm mmm... the inability to face whatevers eating me. To having such a problem that I can't stand. Who the hell knows.

Anyway, for whoever cares, i'll be seein' a docter June or july whatever the 12th, so, i'm sorta having a lot to look forward to then again, it's not much but what I see right now, which is,

W T F

He'd actually been understandable while he was relaxed. Sure, he still had some odd turns of phrase and whatnot, but on the whole, not crazy.
But, then, he stopped doing and started looking at himself.

He shifted from Sartre's pre-reflective cogito to Descartes' reflective one.

Take it easy. Take it easy.
Don't let the sound of your own wheels drive you crazy.

i could never follow his threads well. what exactly is his "shit"?
it seemed for a moment a fear of not knowing who he really was (which i experienced at a slightly earlier age than he, but with more philisophical angst than actual fear) and then he seemed to get so terrified of whatever it was that his ability to describe it degraded again.
anybody know? :confused:

I think part of it was neurosis. I.e. he was always obsessed with how he was behavior. Getting caught up in the ticking of his gears.

But, I think he had, at the least, schizoaffective disorder if not fullblown schizophrenia.

Both of which, I'm afraid, are not easily treated.

He probably is being drugged within an inch of his life.
Poor guy.

He also mentioned in some thread about how he was paranoid. He had delusions that people were watching him all the time. It's really quite fascinating. Eyes in the backs of people's heads even.

The mind is an amazing thing and is so complex that the avenues to breakdown are many.
Part of the advantage of being human is also our weakness.
Even the sanest are prone to madness.
To be human is to walk a delicate and dangerous tightrope.

I think part of it was neurosis. I.e. he was always obsessed with how he was behavior. Getting caught up in the ticking of his gears.

But, I think he had, at the least, schizoaffective disorder if not fullblown schizophrenia.

He also mentioned in some thread about how he was paranoid. He had delusions that people were watching him all the time. It's really quite fascinating. Eyes in the backs of people's heads even.

actually, i've done some research and i read that psychotic depression has symptoms of hypochondria and elements of schizophrenia as well as delusions. i feel i'm now officially an expert on the subject. :D
the hypochondria would be the terrible fear that something was wrong with the way he was mentally and overanalyzing whatever he felt was wrong.
the schizophrenia and psychotic delusions are self-evident.
but whatever he's got is way bad. i read that disorders that bad usually require hospitalization.
my doc tells me that if i get over my fear of him i won't have to be hospitalized...i wonder if that was suppose to help? :bugeye:

The mind is an amazing thing and is so complex that the avenues to breakdown are many.


Yes. I appreciate your concise formulation.

:)

agreed :P

i am not able to readily read any more; however, I am able to type clearer. I believe it is a functioning problem. However what I know is questionable...

My point here in this is that i am back and... I have a problem but I am more clear.
My fingers just slide. I am damn smart though as far as functioning goes :D

Kidding.
Can you see me?

...I need to take another picture,
PeACE

BTW:
I intend to be a buddhist who studies phenomanialism or whatever the spelling... existentialism and such; i want to be the one to the rat race to find the missing link btw a buddhist analyist sounds pretty snifty. Peace is what I need DUH :p

Fuckers with the hot chick bitches.

how have you been, brent?
i was actually wondering about you yesterday.

Dude, you see the poll results, now make with the hot chick

DJ Erock... fuck off :p

Devil Inside;
Hey. I am doing okay it seems. I am not absolutely sure this is the answer though, or not; I have been so many places. But other than that I seem to be doing well... Well enough, that is. I play chess on freechess.org and wish you would try to bug the admins :D Because i am pretty good at chess. However we may be required a longer game, due to my shakieness. I have an amplified awareness of the subconscious infrastructure that supports our conscious existance: in other words, for the "layman", I am a little weird, I have an amplified awareness and want to one day succeed.

Also, you may see the posts on page 6 I have recently made....

Brent

I have an amplified awareness of the subconscious infrastructure that supports our conscious existance: in other words, for the "layman", I am a little weird, I have an amplified awareness and want to one day succeed.

so you are very, very, veeeeery sensitive to the inner workings of your mind and you are spazzing (sorry, i heard it has recently become a politically incorrect term but i mean no harm) about overcoming it to lead a normal and successful life? :D

lets play on yahoo.
my username is under my sciforums profile. feel free to add me.

how does one "play" on yahoo? :D

wtf....
hey, quit making fun of me, too. isn't very spiffy.
yeah i'm sensitive but the problem is in the denial. the denial, man. I have a mission to carry out whoever or not happens to hear me goddammit.

So, fuck the hell off. LOL

wtf....
hey, quit making fun of me, too. isn't very spiffy.
yeah i'm sensitive but the problem is in the denial. the denial, man. I have a mission to carry out whoever or not happens to hear me goddammit.

So, fuck the hell off. LOL

dude, i was serious. you need to lighten a little. i'm just trying to understand here.

And i'm proud for that. At least somebody cares to read me.
:(
yes I bet you are :D dudeeeeee.. :p

Kickass

how does one "play" on yahoo? :D
we were talking about chess. haha

yes I bet you are dudeeeeee..
Kickass

are you making fun of me now? :(

devil: oh. sorry about the interruption this morning then. :o

not at all mr observer!
smply clapping.

not at all mr observer!
smply clapping.

...*sniff!*...i'm a girl... :D

hehe.

hey guys. want to get this crazy thread started again, this time with the new and improved version?